Monday, November 22, 2010

bumpy roads.

*I will,if this is a test of a time*
22nd November'10 @ 2010


1st entry for my favourite month,November.Certain things are simply not for public viewing.Who are you to make others sad?If you want to share the joy and spread happiness to the world,you don't need permission to do so but when it comes to handling certain circumstances,you just better get it done using your own potentially still viable brain cells.


My favourite November will be coming to an end in a week time.Forgetting the month of November and it's very important events that have always made up to my calendar?CLEARLY NO!I could forget anything but not the month of November.Birthdays had passed,welcome to the club...more responsibilities,more logical thinking,more rational actions(I believe)..everything seems to be getting more and more,including my care.It has been in me and it will be in me forever for this is who I am,though now it's not directly visible.


In malay language,there's a saying 'diserang bertubi-tubi'.Well,that applies to me right now.1stly,internal medicine +gynaecology cycle.2ndly-well not so of a surprise (twice mind you) when I'm already --whatever- ,3rdly-to feel and pretending not to know the expectance 4th-why am i feeling guilty?I've done enough on my part and final 5th-hallo,when can I do my gynae exam?why is the prof so busy???????????????????????I so wanna be free without having have to mug my head with gynae...


Honestly not very fine right now.Too many things in head,having sleepless nights with weird dreams..okay come on,I don't get my beautiful 8 hours of sleep,so can you like just let me sleep soundly without anything that has to interfere with my sleep daily?The more you try to forget and say no,the more stronger it stays in your mind..I need a trepanation to decrease my Intracranial pressure~


The month of November which has always provided the most precious memories,has a very little thing to offer me this year.Albeit that,on a more positive and a cheerful note,I've been doing what interests me ever since 2nd November.


And now,with gynae exam's date has been postponed again,the owl is resorting to bed right now.Good night~


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