Thursday, September 29, 2011

Happy World Heart Day!!!


29th September'11 @ 2045

How many of you are actually aware of World Heart Day which falls on the 29th September,annually?This day was commemorated officially in 2000 and has been celebrated ever since.

This year,World Heart Day comes with its new theme and vision " One World,One Home,One Heart".

Undeniably,Cardiovascular diseases maim the most number of lives each year.Therefore,I'm going to share with you an extract from World Heart Federation on how you and your family can take charge of your hearts' health.

1.Ban smoking from your home.
~stop smoking tobacco in the home to improve your own and your children's heart health.
~implement a new rule in your home: for every cigarette someone smokes,an extra household chore is waiting.
*tobacco causes one fifth of Cardiovascular Diseases(CVD) worldwide.The risk of Coronary Heart Disease is cut by half one year after quitting.15 years after quiting,the risk is nearly the same as someone who never smoked.*

2.Stock your home with healthy food options.
~start the day with a piece of fruit or prepare your own lunch at home to ensure healthy options are taken to work or school.
~make sure every meal contains at least two to three servings of vegetables per person.
*a healthy diet low in saturated fats and salt but rich in fruit and vegetables helps prevent CVD.*

3.Be active.
~Families should limit the amount of time spent in front of the tv to less than 2 hours/day.
~organise outdoor activities for the family,such as cycling or hiking trips or simply playing in the garden.
~when possible,instead of using the car,take your bicycle or walk from home to your destination
* Just 30 minutes on most,if not all all days of the week can help to prevent heart attacks and strokes.*

4.Know your numbers.
~visit a healthcare professional who can measure your blood pressure,cholesterol,and glucose levels,together with waist-to-hip ratio and body mass index(BMI).
~once you know your overall CVD risk,you can develop a specific plan of action to improve your heart health.Make this action plan clearly visible in your homes as a reminder!

Sunday, September 25, 2011

single or double?!


26th September'11 @ 1149

If there is a debatable topic that never loses attention from it's readers,it has to be the evergreen topic on "marriage or staying single?".2 days ago,it was once again published in the most widely read TheStar.Like always,the writer always finds his way out after making up an entry.Smart move by the writer- by writing on the both sides of the story but what I liked best about that particular person who penned down his/her thoughts-everything was written in a more positive remarks on interviewed opinions of the outsiders.Too fantasy-like to be real,you might wonder?But isn't that a good motivator for someone who's planning to get hitched?Otherwise,we have our very own command of ourselves to agree or disagree.However,something just crossed my mind at this very moment and now it got me thinking.Wait...perhaps the writer was biased because the printed names of the interviewers are all women's!!!Now..where he/she(the writer of the column) is getting to?

What is/are the reason(s) of choosing only women to participate on finding a resolution for this topic?Isn't it supposed to be a 2 way street approach?Well,prolly..the writer thought only women will give the most honest and idealistic answers to his/her questions? or can it be he/she couldn't find any males on his/her hunt? or he/she only wanted what actually a carrier/modern women think about marriage?...

Centuries ago,marriage was a necessity in life as women are the housewives and men were the sole breadwinners of the families.In certain ethnic families or best example in India ( and I heard it is still being practiced till now in rural and traditional villages) whereby,once a child is born,he/she (most of the baby girl) will be 'unofficially married' to the near-related cousins,regardless of the age.It is believed the husband and wife bond has been established from the birth and once the girl attains her puberty,she will be officially married and sent off to her husband's house...and by that time,she would probably just a 12 year old kid,an age when she should be studying/enjoying her teen days.That wasn't an epic story but sadly certain things can't be changed even at this modern era.

I remember very clearly,during my Form 6 MUET classes,we were given a topic for discussion by our most respectable mentor,Mrs.Anna which sent giggles and soft roars from all of us when we heard the title " which one is better?staying single or getting married?".Believe me more than half of the class chose the former,including me.The pretty,tall,slim Indian lady stood still looking at the show of hands on voting for 'staying single'.As she was counting silently the number of raised hands,she smiled and finally she chose few of us to come in front of the class and read out our points.As you would have guessed;girls,we said something very much in common: WE HAVE MORE TIME FOR OURSELVES.Mrs Anna's verdict : "Girls,let everything happen naturally and you got to experience every single phase of life".

Marriage takes up lots commitments and there are many failed marriages because people got married for the sake of getting into one.The mass media,peer,family and society pressure are what drives one to get married when one is not even able to fend for himself.Every new phase in life appears to be exciting and fun at the beginning but it tends to fade as it gets to become a routine and maybe the cause of boredom, and that's when many unexpressed words were hurled at each other.I think one shouldn't let 3rd party to decide what's best for himself/herself.There's always bright and dark side in every event that takes place in your life,do what you think is good for you.Want to get married when you're think you're fully up for it?Go for it and make sure to sustain the relationship and appreciate the other half of you till the last breath of yours.

Since this is my post,I'd like to make a very natural-opinion based entry,still with a tinge of a young lady's personal view .The woman of new age which I'm portraying here is someone who's humble despite her success,firm and determined with her stand. Women tend to detest marriage not because of their superiority feeling being a renowned corporate/working ladies,but it's because what they've been hearing,seeing,experiencing and exposed to.Leave behind television with their never ending romance filled movies,certain mega serials can stretch for years with only episodes of love,hatred,vengeance...arrghh,sickening.When you hear stories of breakups from your besties,you'll tend to grow apart from the thought of wedding bells.Personally when it happens to you,the final decision will be made not to get yourself attached with any emotionally related relationships.

Life is not as simple as how they telecast in tv or how it is aired or it is written in the newspapers/magazines.It summons up whatever that's with and in you to take up a commitment of life time and in order to not let yourself feel fooled or taken for granted because you definitely need the best.Cosmopolitan women are not arrogant/ignorant/snobbish(well not all,mind you).We are still well-virtued.All that being asked from the XY population is,accept women as they are.Recognise the ability,respect them and treat them equally.Why do you have to feel inferior when a woman earns/educated higher than you?Men say,one shouldn't have ego in a relationship,so how do you classify that when inferiority complex swells you from within?Learn to digest the fact,women are far more independent now(isn't that a plus?do you want someone who clings to you on petty things?) but that doesn't mean we don't enjoy your company.We just don't want to burden you and on the same note,we are not your scapegoats/maids at home.We're not weaker sex as labelled by many.But how many of you out there will accept this fact?How many of you will treat their women(wife) as their bestest friend?How many of you will respect their ambitions in life?Any guys out there willing to go the extra mile?

As I mentioned above,women are not against marriage but a woman's feelings are very fragile.Once the trust or her heart has been broken,I'd doubt it if she'd go for another experience of the same kind when she has already have what she needs...beautiful family,assets,wonderful carrier..why spend time with someone who's not even worth a penny?

Later if you bump into an old spinster/non-married woman,quit foul-mouthing,you'll never know what might have cost her to become one.

Everyone falls in love.Yes,everyone..I will strongly disagree if any of you say "No,I've never did and will never".Everyone falls in love at a certain age of their lives.It's either you admit the truth or hide it under your sleeves but remember "never regret for anything that had made you smile before" .

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Saturday, September 24, 2011

mode: being idle.

* soon I'm gonna be upside down,like this..:p*
25th September'11 @ 0014

Can I tell you something?Waiting is ain't fun at all,no really..it's not.I think I'm getting more idle day by day and unfortunately,it has been noted by dad.Shameful me,but what am I supposed to do?It was said earlier,the biggest induction will be on the 4th October and ever since then,been waiting anxiously for my induction letter.I've never looked out for the Pos Laju delivery as much as I did last thursday..as for mom,'let the letter come late...better still if it's after diwali"..what?no way mom!!~ With a regime of 9am to 5pm everyday for the past 6 years,I really feel useless..it feels like I'm on a vacation,a very lazy vacation,indeed.

Maybe I should get started on my notes and revise them.Believe me,I did start on them but it seems like my brain cells need to be 'electrocuted' so that they'll remain focused and get on the run with me.Long stretch of holidays,undeniable have set the neurons and impulse transmission at rest.

Still,not passing by the days being lifeless.Been into deep thoughts on past,present and future(the latter has to be reminded by dad,as usual)..well,well new topics been suggested into my mind;USMLE and MRCP during my housemanship and yes,if I'm committed enough,I will sail through but can I juggle them smoothly: housemanship and foreign medical examinations?It's so impulsive and easy to say when someone asks you what your specialisation going to be?But when the time is nearing,a lump forms in your throat.I sought after advices regarding these as I'm still a newbie here.Let's see which one will be better out of the two,and that's for the sake of a dream that has always been inside to be realised.

I know soon I will be demanding for my break because of exhaustion but as for now....prolly,next week I will receive a white envelope ,written "URUSAN SERI PADUKA BAGINDA?"

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Monday, September 19, 2011

Backstreet Boys - Story Of My Life (High Quality)



The pop legend heartthrobs certainly have grown up and became more inspirational with this unreleased(I wonder why??) track..what more can a true BSB fan say? "I know we have changed but change can be good..." -yes,you're right BSB.This song is for a change and please release a brand new album soon,the fans need new dose of songs ASAP:) KTBPA!!!

Saturday, September 17, 2011

drinking myths revealed.

*long term effects of alcohol*
18th September'11 @ 0201

FALSE FACTS.

1.Drinking coffee will sober you up

-the theory is based on opposites-alcohol,the depressant and coffee the stimulant-cancelling each other out is not true.coffee will only makes you hyperactive and you won't be able to sleep afterwards. * even the cold shower trick is also unapplicable*

2.Beer bellies are caused by drinking beer
-it's a myth.beer belly is also known as visceral(gut) fat build up around the middle of the body. Scientists aren't sure why this happens to some people..as it is still an idiopathic cause,sitting around and eating could be the factors but standing up and eating won't make it any better,too. * I think,all you need is some workout here!*

3.Drinking destroys your brain cells.
-too much or too little of something,certainly not advisable.Moderate consumption of alcohol can improve brain function.

4.Men and women of the same size can drink the same amount.
-women have less alcohol dehydrogenase enzymes,which is responsible to break down alcohol in their blood.so girls,watch out ya!

5.Never mix the grape and the grain
-mixing drinks won't make you any better or worse than sticking to one drink;nor will avoiding dark drinks in favour of lighter ones.Underline this: the solution is : don;'t drink to excess in the first place.

6.The custom of clincking glasses was to avoid poisoning.

-it is said,clincking is to avoid from being drugged when you meet new people,as it is believed when you bang our glasses,slopping some of your drink into his.others were;to ward off evil spirirts.And some experts believe,it became popular because of the pleasant noise it makes.

7.Alcohol makes you a better lover.
-it doesn't.It just has a big impact on your inhibitions making you feel more confident and more confortable.You might end up doing things you'd probably never do when sober.Alcohol's major side effects-it slows down the communications across your synapses and making you less able to control your physical actions.

8.Taking painkillers before drinking will stop a hangover.
-aspirin actually slows the rate at which your body breaks down alcohol,prolonging both the effects of being drunk and getting over it.The effect of aspirin only last a few hours,not all night.


9.You can beat a breathalyser.

- if you think you can by sucking pennies, eating sweets,or even eating underpants (as one American driver)..it won't cut it,you just can't beat breathalyser.

10.Exercising on a hangover is a bad idea.

-mild exercise 'raise the metabolic rate and dispose the poisons(alcohol) more quickly.Keep yourself hydrated with water.The headache with a hangover is reduced blood flow and spasm around your head,but mostly what makes you feel awful is your body trying to metabolise the poisons.

From medical point of view,drinking is very injurious to health(this is not a news,known by many however as a taboo,the warning sign is overlooked) mainly to the liver as it can cause liver cirrhosis.Drinkers will usually succumb to this condition namely affecting the general structure of the liver,regeneration of nodules and portal hypertension which will later lead to ascites(accumulation of fluid in the abdomen),encephalopathy which can lead to coma and death,spontaneous bacterial peritonitis(which can be fatal),and to a the extent of hepatic renal snydrome (with affection of kidney resulting in kidney failure).
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Monday, September 12, 2011

Jar of Hearts.


13th September'11@ 0228

I have been having this surge to write a blog post today,just a very strong impulse to do so but I have neither any interesting nor discussable topic to put up.In spite of that,when the inner voice wanting to do something badly while passing by the night with Mix fm's best variety of songs,I thought of sharing this lyrics from Christina Perri.The song has its own string of listeners and I am one of them.A very simple song with the playback music--guitar,perhaps?,more like a very deep woman's voice(christina perri's)-mind you,it can give you goosebumps when you listen to it at night,sorry Ms.Perri!but it's title and the easily understood lyrics,captured the listeners,I believe.

Christina Perri's Jar Of Hearts.


I know I can't take one more step towards you
Cause all that's waiting is regret
And don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore?
You lost the love I loved the most.

I learned to live,half-alive
And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are?

Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts

And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold

From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me


Who do you think you are?

I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms

I've learned to live,half-alive

Now you want me one more time


Who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold

From the ice inside your soul


So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?

Dear,it took so long
Just to feel alright

Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed
The first time that we kissed
'Cause you broke all your promises

And now you're back
you don't get to get me back

Who do you think you are?

Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts and tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold

From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

Who do you think you are?

who do you think you are?
who do you think you are
?

this song is for a change from my usual addiction of lovey-dovey and happy songs:):).Can't stay away from listening to music even for a day!Music can be encouraging(most of them are..listen to the lyrics and you'll feel loads better),makes you dance to its beat and definitely tells exactly/describes better how you feel(most of the time!).

Music is the greatest gift that has been given to mankind:)anyone out there to oppose this??:p


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Thursday, September 8, 2011

Staying ALIVE.

-true enough-:)
9th September'11 @ 0121

Now I'm convinced that being an insomniac has its own advantages;found another 'food for life' article which states;

HOW TO STAY YOUNG?


1.Throw out nonessential numbers.This include age,weight and height.Let the doctors worry about them.That is why you pay them(haha).

2.Keep only cheerful friends.The grouches pull you down.

3.Keep learning.Learn more about the computers,crafts,gardening,whatever.Never let the brain idle.


4.Enjoy the simple things.


5.Laugh often,long and loud.Laugh until you gasp for breath.

6.The tears happen.Endure,grieve and move on.The only person who is with us our entire life,is ourselves.Be ALIVE while you are alive.

7.Surround yourself with what you love,whether it's family,pets,keepsakes,music,plants,hobbies,whatever.Your home is your refuge.


8.Cherish your health :If it is good,preserve it.If it is unstable,improve it.If it is beyond what you can improve,get help.

9.Don't take guilt trips.Take a trip to the mall,even to the next country;to a foreign country but NOT to where the guilt is.


10.Tell the people you love that you love them,at every opportunity.

AND ALWAYS REMEMBER : Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take,but by the moments that take our breath away.


=)

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Tuesday, September 6, 2011

L.I.F.E-let it flow easily:)

"...and it's never too late:)"
7th September'11 @ 1159

I came across this good piece of inspiring thought on life whilst browsing through my FB page lifelessly!It certainly worth a read and thinking and you'll know it's all about you and your VERY OWN LIFE in the end,that matters afterall.:)

"THIS IS YOUR LIFE.
DO WHAT YOU LOVE,AND DO IT OFTEN.

IF YOU DON'T LIKE SOMETHING,CHANGE IT.
IF YOU DON'T LIKE YOUR JOB,QUIT.
IF YOU DON'T HAVE ENOUGH TIME,STOP WATCHING TV.
IF YOU ARE LOOKING FOR THE LOVE OF YOUR LIFE,STOP;

THEY WILL BE WAITING FOR YOU WHEN YOU START DOING THINGS YOU LOVE.

STOP OVER ANALYZING,LIFE IS SIMPLE.

ALL EMOTIONS ARE BEAUTIFUL.

WHEN YOU EAT,APPRECIATE EVERY LAST BITE.

OPEN YOUR MIND,ARMS,AND HEART TO NEW THINGS AND PEOPLE,
WE ARE UNITED IN OUR DIFFERENCES.
ASK THE NEXT PERSON YOU SEE WHAT THEIR PASSION IS,
AND SHARE YOUR INSPIRING DREAM WITH THEM.

TRAVEL OFTEN.
GETTING LOST WILL HELP YOU FIND YOURSELF.
SOME OPPORTUNITES ONLY COME ONCE,SEIZE THEM.
LIFE IS ABOUT THE PEOPLE YOU MEET,
AND
THE THINGS YOU CREATE WITH THEM
SO GO OUT AND START CREATING.
LIFE IS SHORT.

LIVE YOUR DREAM AND SHARE YOUR PASSION".


Besides that lengthy one,this has always been my favourite when i'm thrown at the crossroads "to do or not to do?"-
"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover." Mark Twain.

If there's something holding you concrete tight from doing what you like,don't think twice,just BREAK the concrete and live your life!Dont' allow yourself to turn back later on with regret and say "what if i had done it?/I should have done that..."

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Tuesday, August 23, 2011

Prema.


"I promise you,from the bottom of my heart,I will love you till death do us apart..."-lyrics from The Backstreet Boys.

24th August'11 @ 0220

Prema in telugu means love.5 letters in Telugu and 4 letters in English.I'm not the right person to write on this subjective feeling.Did you know?Being a good listener somehow always in return,is expected to give your opinion,even when you try to 'run away' from 'few sensitive topics'.

So here it goes,I have the slightest idea on how many will nod in agreement with me but this captivating word is causing unlimited miseries/joy/pleasure and yes,you may add other describable words/feelings if you wish.

It's not an old news,but few times I was asked "how do you know if it's a true love?"..darn! I was so tempted to answer "dude,you got no better questions to ask during meeting ups?",instead I replied, "when it happens to you,then you'll know".Answered nonchalantly,you think?.And you will secretly hope that no further questions will be shot at you but before you could realise,there comes "but when and how la..." from the mouth of your bestie.Now you have no choice,when the request is stronger than before.See this is what i said,being a good listener and observer aren't enough (at times!).

My very personal opinion on love-it is a subjective feeling,better to say it's a good blend of all the feelings in the whole world-happiness,sadness,ecstasy,dreamy feeling(e.g flying so up in the sky),turning into a Jr.Shakespeare,feeling 'lighter' regardless of day/night,racing heartbeats or sometimes you could have the sensation of skipped heartbeats..okay enough with that,others might have different symptoms when you fell into one.Yet,not all can be considered as true love and one cannot ascertain it will last forever.

In this new age,is there still true love?Don't mistaken me,I'm not against love.I am still adamant on "love is the greatest feeling on the earth".But the existence of true love is questionable in modern society.How things could be so different during our grandparents days?Their family institution was far more stronger than how it is now in young generations'.As we become more educated,nonetheless,we become more ignorant and less thankful of each other.Everybody wants to win but nobody wants to listen,now that's something to be rectified.

It's not wise enough to ask a teenager/youngsters on 'what is love?'.If you're seeking for the most humble,innocent and honest answer--ask kids and the senior citizens who still walk hand in hand.Few years back,I came across a special column in thestar written on love-the entry was entitled S.H.M.I.L.Y which stands for 'see how much i love you'.The story was about how this couples will leave the S.H.M.I.L.Y abbreviation in written form on a piece of paper,on the grains,in their closet only being discovered later by the other half.On the other hand ,a kid at his/her tender age replied "love is when mum cooks dad's most favourite dish" or "love is when dad brings mum roses in the evenings and hugs her from behind"..now isn't that a sweet reply?Kids practice what they see,just like "you reap what you sew".

Love can come in many forms,it's you who have full control over it.They say 'appreciate that someone when he/she is still there" because it's pointless to cry over a spilled milk.So why wait for tomorrow to say 'I am sorry'' or "thank you" when you still have today???Saying 'sorry' doesn't degrade yourself,but it shows how much you love and care for the person by setting aside your ego merely because you still want them in your life.Mostly,people are blinded from the very start that they don't see all the simple things that are needed to a put a smile on each other's face.

To tell the truth,I look with much admiration at the grandpas and grandmothers while on my outings.Usually I will steal quick glances at them (until I've been caught by them) before I give them a smile and guess what?Grandpas and grandmas will flash back their toothless smiles at me:) I love that sight,don't ask me why but they are the icon for "it's not how much love you have in the beginning,but it's how much love you built towards the end".

So,the next time you need advice on true love, kindly refer to senior citizens and you'll be awed at their successful secret recipe of long standing marriage and love.Perhaps,true love is still out there because of them:)

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Thursday, August 18, 2011

is there SOMETHING still left?

we're Malaysians and let us be proud to be one.
19th August'11 @ 0107

Malaysia has lost its identity which it once had.I miss my Malaysia.I miss dearly the Malaysia that I once grew up,the Malaysia which once had been the role model for other nations for Its best exemplary in housing multi-racial citizens.It was once,I highly doubt it if it is still.

The Malaysia that I'm seeing now is a total 'new' Malaysia.I believe I was not away for too long,was I?it was only for 6 years and the new look of Malaysia is very much saddening,especially when a foreigner(s) write(s) about this land of ours with much disappointment.It's even heartbreaking when you see the many entries on the staronline page :"why I want to emigrate from Malaysia?".The emigrate word always out wins the immigrate word and makes us think "has Malaysia become worse over the years?".Where's our manners and ethics as Malaysians?Where is our ever ready smiley face in greeting politely a tourist(s) /in aiding a lost visitor(s)?Where is our "please have my seat,grandma/grandpa/pregnant lady/special child" on public transports?Where is our slowing down the car's speed while nearing the pedestrian walk?Where is our giving way to an elderly who's trying with much difficulties to cross a road?Where? where and where?Have all these inherited values in us vanished into the thin air with modernisation?Does it hurt to practice more humanly and with love and care?

I grew up in a multi-racial neighbourhood.Though we're not like the neighbours of the rural areas,never once we have forgotten the surrounding neighbours whom we considered as our nearest relatives.I went to national schools ever since my childhood days.I never once thought of or even cared to ask my parents "why did you enrol me in Sekolah Kebangsaan?"but now personally I know,many parents are opting for International Schools for their betterment of the children's education.I don't blame their decision when there are many setbacks in our national schools in present.For God's sake,students education/studies are not something to be toyed around,it's either you stick to Bahasa Malaysia or Bahasa Inggeris,stop contemplating on it,will you?This issue has been going on for years and there's still no final decision about it.When will this end?When I was in school ( I'm proud to call myself a RPSian) even in my previous primary school,the teachers were fair to all of us without labelling us by skin colours(it happens now in schools),the marking system was fair,teachers had the time to explain to us and guide us throughout our school years without lacking in their responsibilities.They don't wash off their hands by saying "I know you're going for tuitions" or giving extra tuitions after schooling hours to gain extra wages.Few of us never even went for tuition classes during our early years.Teachers are more dedicated and qualified during the past years but now???I spent most of my time with classmates who are mostly malays,chinese and only maximum of 4 indians in my class.We were a happy family.I'm not ashamed to say " we used to sing..I love you,you love me,we're one big happy family" yes it is from the tv show "barney and friends".Not a morning goes by without us greeting each other once we entered the classroom.We enjoyed each others company very much,lived as a family over the years,together I mean as we advanced each year.That's why I still miss my schooling life which holds the most unforgetful memories given by my fellow classmates.The people that i encounter in present are very much the opposite.I don't judge a person by first meet but I can say again,it has come down to you're indian,and I'm not,now.I feel alienated in my own country,I will tell you why.I don't care if you call me a bragger but I can proudly say,in my school,we have no separate clubs for extra curricular activities such as :Indian Society/Chinese Society or Persatuan Agama Islam.We mingle around with everyone.These are the small things in segregation(practiced by many schools) which has already given a biggest impact on us.I don't know how many students do this but when I was in school,my fellow indian friends(my close friends and seniors) and I did not speak in our mother tongue while conversing.Despite the fact that I was a prefect,i was encouraged by my parents to speak more in english and malay in school and I can assure and as were told by many,I don't have the Indian accent while conversing in Malay.At times,people could mistaken me as a Malay girl while on the phone.The many best friends that I have and still in touch with comprise Malays,Chinese and Indians and even till now,I can hang out with them and still longing for outings with them.

I'm blessed to have such sweet and wonderful memories of school where racial discrimination wasn't present,at least not in the environment that I grew up.Perhaps it was there in 90's and before the millennium,but as a student,we were only exposed to 'good' news on tv and during the those days,Internet accessibility was considered still 'scarce' and it was monitored under the vigilant eyes of parents.I don't remember surfing for extra source of news on Malaysia beside 'the always right and no flaw' news on the television.Under the reign of my most favourite politician,without any doubt,Malaysia has emerged as the best developing nation around the world and double standard among the races were not prominent,unlike right now.I have always been an avid reader and I do keep myself updated about Malaysia even when I was abroad but came to a point I just lost interest on the daily melodramas of Malaysian news on racism,crime rates at stake,the conflict over power...and it's sickening to read all these when they don't bring any betterment for the people.

You declare 1Malaysia.Everywhere I turn...there's definitely something about 1Malaysia.What do you understand by that declaration?There will be no 1Malaysia ever if in government offices when a government worker answers you half-heartedly,with a very bitter face and to very much
dismay portraying the real racist attitude by saying " saya sudah asingkan India untuk memudahkan kerja" when you were looking for your already filled up form for interview.Does that make sense to you?It would have been more logical to think if only she had done her part by separating male and female applicants' forms.You might think I am being rude but I found my form and I walked off without even thanking her.Sorry,I have no respect for her.I have never encountered this type of situation and when it happened it actually jolted me back to reality and I know I'd be seeing this more.

Despite all these,I still love my Malaysia.This is my country.I have been to other countries but the thought of emigrating has never occurred to me,because I know this is where I belong.For me,Malaysia is still the best country besides all the chaos and instability that's been going on. We carry it's name as "I am a MALAYSIAN" wherever we go.I just want back my previous harmonious Malaysia and that's my only wish for the coming 54th Hari Merdeka.We're one and I still prefer to call myself as a Malaysian First rather than I am an Indian.There will be no changes in this statement.


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Thursday, August 11, 2011

c.h.a.n.g.e.s

a caption on metamorphosis;)
12th August'11 @ 0101

No one stays the same over the years.One may deny,I used to be one too till i was proven wrong.When I was told earlier,"she/he changed from how he/she used to be",the most proper question that I'd ask "in what aspect?attitude/character/physically or just from the outer appearance?".It's still benign if the changes only on how a person clads rather than being a total new person when what the so called 'peer influence and environmental/culture shock' take place.

I've seen many and I,personally would honestly claim that the way I think/my adaptation/my tolerance to people have changed.I'm delighful that over the 6 years,I (believe) I have become a better person in analysing certain matters,and like I said..it's not something that should be brushed aside.Changes are just everywhere,whether one likes it or not,we will definitely experience it and before we could realise,we're already thrown into the new ball of 'change'.

The best example that I had seen,amongst my little ones(i'd still address them that way though they've grown up now).It took me awhile to realise these kids actually can express what's in their minds better than even I could!Kids of 90's are very much straightforward,all you have to do is to start off a 'famous topic' while having table talks during reunions and you'll be taken aback how well they can get into it with much thoughts.Parents of 3 might be at ease thinking "i have provided them all that are necessary for the kids.." but little did they know and even aunt was surprised when my youngest cousin sister of 12 years old voiced out " Mom doesn't pay much attention to me,she only cares about 1st and 2nd sisters"(the elder sisters denied it though) and aunt was engulfed in silent mode,eyes nearly brimmed with tears but she gave back a weary and reassuring smile asking "why did you say that???"..answer:"you don't really bother much whether I have taken my meals"..just a note here;this lil angel dislikes vegetables,but is a big fan of fast food outlets especially Mc'D.I bet till that minute aunt wasn't aware of the slight changes of feeling that was in her youngest daughter until it was spoken.What could have caused the change of feeling in her when previously she never commented on her mother?surprising?I was,very indeed.

There's a proverb saying "birds of the same flock will always fly together"--yeah,you can do it and it can happen if :
1.you're planning to please each and everyone but beware honesty and sincerity always the most prime ones in life or,
ONLY if,
2.you've grown up with a bunch of trustworthy companions,where you don't have to pretend but you just know that you belong with them:) "thank you my besties/partners in crime".

Do not be afraid of changes,if it's for good,do expand it an extra mile,rather than encasing it in a small world of yours,be bold and if the next time people say "you've changed"..say "thank you"(ONLY if you're damn sure if it's for the better!) instead of giving them a blank face or a sheepish smile.There's nothing bad about changes if it doesn't hurt anyone in between.

I'll leave you with my most favourite evergreen song(one of the best) from Joey McIntyre,the lyrics say it all.Give a listen to it and you'll agree with me.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n5omDkJvN7Y

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Wednesday, August 3, 2011

As It Is.


4th August'11@0232

It's kind of too late if i still tell myself-I'm having jet lag,nevertheless I'm still awake.Been surfing the net and here I am,doing one of my favourites-blogging.

Life as a 'jobless' girl seems to be taking its toll on me.Maybe because I'm too used to being occupied that now I find myself being too free.Not very much of a tv/movie person."mom,do you want me to do anything for you?" answer ;"it's okay,I will do it"..duh!Not the type of a person who loves to lepak.I can say,this life is damn relaxing but at the same time it feels 'empty'.*Don't whim,you'll be missing this free period once induction is over!*

On the other hand,Finally today I got hold of The Bhagavad Gita As It Is (The Song of God) after reading 'The Reservoir of Pleasure" --who else could it refer to?It has to be Lord Krsna,always and eternally:).The Bhagavad Gita has always been my most favourite book(though I considered it as the most sacred Veda of the devotees).I hope it's not too late for me to read this thick book(hopefully can finish it before I start working).There are many simplified version/books on The Mahabharata and The Bhagavad Gita but it wont hurt to read the actual verses(700) in sanskrit as it is delivered by The Lord himself on the battlefield.Even before I turn the pages of the holy book, a very clear and inspirational message from The Bhagavad Gita is
"Whatever that had happened,happened for good.Whatever that's happening is happening for good and whatever that will happen also will happen for good only".

A very delightful note on the back of the hardcover of the book,written by the great Mahatma Gandhi sounds " When doubts haunt me,when disappoinments stare me in the face,and I see not one ray of hope on the horizon,I turn to Bhagavad Gita and find a verse to comfort me;and I immediately begin to smile in the midst of overwhelming sorrow.Those who meditate on the Gita will derive fresh joy and new meanings from it every day." Hence begins my self-realisation process too,just a beginner but I have started!:)

Besides engaging myself with The Bhagavad Gita,I'm going to hit gym tomorrow,visited the gym and all of sudden I miss the better equipped gym in Nizhny Novgorod.I can't sit at home 24/7!

Okay,good night for now~

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Thursday, July 28, 2011

and it begins...



28th July'11 @ 2100

Good evening malaysia:) been a week upon my return for good.I didn't want to recall how I felt the moment I stepped out from my 410 cocoon and locking it for the last time.But all went well,I didnt shed tears as I had done what I should have done and spent the last sunday at Mac'D with my Kenyan mates of 6 years.We have never talked/spent that much of hours in Mc'D on normal days but that day was an exception.After packing my luggages for the last time,I sat by the balcony just letting my thoughts get swayed with the chill wind of Nizhny.Very nostalgic indeed,I remembered the most precious moments that took place in Nizhny..will I be back again?As a lone traveller all the way from Nizhny to Moscow airport,my thoughts start to dart away once again.In airport,met a foreign student and we became friends and finally in Dubai,met another malaysian chinese,a graduate too and we became good friends:)The last journey indeed was fun and the excitement wasnt like how it used to be,prolly cos I knew,I dont have to fly back in 2 months to Russia?...

It has been a quiet life at home as buddies and the gang hasnt back to Ipoh.Spending most of the time at home and completing my online forms to be submitted for my job applications.Mind it,even doctors have to apply for job!!! well,this statement actually made my non-medic friends blink in surprise....

Downloaded most of the forms from the official sites of Lembaga Peperiksaan ,MMC and KKM.Registered online with SPA and now here I am today in Sri Petaling.Gotta get up early tomorrow morning to Putrajaya to submit all my forms for registration.Guess only then I'd be able to breath easily.JUst hope everything will go smoothly tomorrow.

Till my SPA interview and induction,I'm JOBLESS:p

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

bored to death

12th july'11@1416 final exams had passed with good remarks from the doctors.graduation was over with extreme and mixed emotions in me.tour to the venice of europe:st.petersburg with mum and dad done and now im back in my 410,repacked my books and notes in boxes for cargo,luggages are all set to fly back,hopefully there wont be any changes.will be receiving my translated degree tomorrow before the final procedure in malaysian embassy in moscow.so much of bureocracy to be done and that makes me want to leave this place even faster but still,deep inside me,i know i will be missing my independent and single life more than anything else once im back home especially when im still being treated as their precious little girl.however it maybe,i respect them with all that i have but its my life and the final decision will be mine. I dont admit that im a net addict but why should i again right?but i seriously need the connection to be on regardless im using it or not.im thrown into a massive boredom now-no internet in my room,i miss to the core logging into my msn live messenger and im patheticaly using my mobile and blogging while lying on my bed and listening to drakes and the mowing grass machine outside my 4th floor.another 5 more days and im gonna say good bye to my little room,hostel and russia..5 days now seems like weeks when i cant online:(.a part of me wants to be back in malaysia with new life waiting before my eyes and another part of me rejects it,just a minor fear slipping in,not knowing what awaits upon my return.i have learned a sum and i know i should go easy with life and live as i want in and im going to make the best out of it. Just one word now:BORED. 1445.

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Last Day as a Medical Student T_T

"Medicine is the noblest of all profession".The key to healing is faith.Patients trust doctors,and doctors trust in science.Modern science has revolutioned the way we practice medicine.Yet there is a huge missing link between the science and patient care "-retrieved this excript from Dr.Venkatesan M.D 's blog.





25th May'11 @ 1418



My Final Surgery Rotation.Final Day to call myself as a Medical STudent.The end of my 6 years of lectures/practical classes-going-student's life.Few of my colleagues got all emofied and you could see in FB feeds and I wasn't spared neither except that I can't clearly draw a distinct line on how I feel..it's all so mixed up and it started even earlier-right after I woke up for class on Monday morning.It's hard to believe how fast the time passed by,leaving me dazzled looking at the many things that had happened these past 6 years.



I have no say on what others may think when their 2 decades of life spent being a student,but as for me,i enjoyed every single moments of my life even though I'm well labelled as being a bookworm..heck,I never gave them a hasty look or mockingly answered them simply because I know where my passion lies and who I want to be.Being an ordinary girl,I do look out for entertainments and that's the moment I got/will get swayed..and atleast,those 'extra-curricular' activities besides classes and lectures do add some colours to 'what a bored medical student's life',like how it would have been described by many(non-medic students).At times,a little flare will set me to erupt like a volcano when many things just find their way into my head.There were times,when I'll just push away all the books/notes/lectures and sit quietly or turn on my playlist at the loudest volume or even resort for an action packed movie when I couldn;t take it no more but surprisingly,I work better when I;m under stress with the surge of cathecolamines in me.I wouldn't be missing this stress as I regard the most extreme ones are yet to come.



I still remember the night before(2nd Oct'05) my first day as a medical student - 3rd October 2005 (wow,it feels like ancient years ago now!),i reminded myself the reason why I'm far away from dad and mum and it all boils down for my childhood dream to come true.Now,I'm VERY MUCH PROUD with myself and will beam loudly and say " I have fulfilled my role as a true MEDICAL STUDENT- I'm one of this 'kaki lecture' from 1st till 6th year,regardless of how boring the lectures are (e.g : hygiene,physical therapy and public health??) and never paid(it's a rule here) to replace classes for being absent/skipped classes and,can say one of the most wanted students for lecture materials.As a student,I know I have played my part and never misused the freedom that was given my mum and dad to me.For that,I know i have lived up to mum and dad's expectations.Way to go Junior Dr:)



For being the student I was,I don;t know how my life would have been if it wasn;t for me being here but after today,there's no more waking up past midnight(except till GOC exams are over),walking with zakiah to catch buses for classes,skipping lunch or maybe grabbing the famous russian sloika/potato bun on my way to lecture,no more being the drop dead exhausted girl with a Mc'D paperback + Mc' flurry on fridays after Internal Medicine lectures,no more slopping on the bed and enjoy being in my own cocoon with lappie on my lap and watching movie on friday nights and finally drifting to sleep...despite all the hecticness of being a Medical Student with books as your most loyal and best(est) companion,I know I couldn't find more satisfaction once I get my M.D title in a month.Like what they say,all your sacrifices and deeds will be paid off.



Honestly,yesterday I almost broke down after seeing Lisa's post in my fb.I immediately texted dad and mum and told them how I wished I could get a hug from them at that very moment.It was past 12 am Malaysian time and typical of daddy,the next minute I got a call from him asking "darling,are you okay?" Me :"yes daddy,it's just that I feel actually I don't know it feels weird as I'm going to end my student's life tomorrow".Mum texted too wondering what's up with me but I managed to usher her to bed to sleep:)



It's the life that I chose(and it made all the difference)and undoubtfully,it has thought me many lessons in life and to become who I am now.I might have ended my medical student's life but I will continue being a learner and what's next??...back to being a student after like what?5 years?..:):) Cardiology,you're always on my mind,don't you worry about that.



The experience of being a student is priceless for me and this would have shown you why I'm being all emofied on my last day as a Medical Student.Every place that I've been here,my second home-Niznhy will be encased in my mind forever.Soon,I will be bidding good bye to my second home but I know I can always come back here for another walk down the memory lane ...yes,the long walks that I used to take in the cold breeze down the pathways while coming across cute and decent russian hunks:)



Like mum and dad had said,"you're almost there,soon will be back home darling" Dad's favourite line "you're into a nobel profession darling".Dad,Mum,I'm waiting to welcome both of you at the airport next month:)



And now,it's time for FINALS in medical school before I finally graduate next month- 28th JUne.Will declare my name officially then:)



All the best and you know YOU CAN DO IT,Jr.Doc.



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Friday, May 20, 2011

Friday Nite & PH (+ or - ?)

" I am only one;but still I am one.I cannot do everything,but still I can do something.I will not refuse to do the something I can do " -Helen Keller






20th May'11 @ 2258








Currently,is bunking with public health lectures (seems like it's never going to end).I'd rather read Internal Med/check on ECGs/read surgery than stuffing my head with PH.BUT,DO I HAVE A CHOICE?IT'S MY FIRST EXAM OF GOC~ so by any means,i gotta get these into my head!!!
















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Friday, May 13, 2011

It's nearing,zombie.

*this is hillariously cute ...

14th May'11 @ 1059






there's no way from keeping it coming...racing heartbeats begin with just another 2 weeks away!!! *screaming my lungs out(how i wish!) *






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Sunday, May 8, 2011

Re-BBq,anyone???

4th Floor's Junior Doctors.


8th May'11:Group A during dodge ball game...




8th may'11:time to makan...


8th May'11:This is how we bbq despite the drizzle and wind



7th May'11 : pre-bbq:watergun war on 4th floor.



8th May'11 @ 2208




when Junior Docs become 5 year Olds!!!


Thank you folks for a bbq like never before!:)














Saturday, April 30, 2011

Ignore,ignore,ignore..

* go away at your own risk*...










fear/confusion is creeping in for a reason or for no reason?I can't seem to undertsand why except to feel my thumping heartbeats each day,and it's increasing day by day or is it just my subjective feeling?

Whatever that awaits,you may attack me once the month of June ends,now it's already MAY!








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Friday, April 22, 2011

Because,You matter to Me.

*no more compromising in putting a smile on you*


23rd April'11 @0419

-it's all because,I care about you.


#said enough#



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Monday, April 18, 2011

DONE!--Surgery Prac with H.O.D:)

*med school teaser 3*-Practice makes perfect:p

18th April'11 @ 1630


Insiduous onset of palpitations + cold sweats + fear with no boundaries..and by 12.30,I'm done with surgery practicals in Vodnaya department.


By 8.40am,was already in hospital but we were systematically sent to patients after like 1 hour+++.Was glad for the time in between as i managed to check on colorectal cancer from Oxford handbook of clinical surgery.At times,last minute flipping will certainly come in aid and guess what?my patient,69 years old with chronic illness of hemorrhoids and recently diagnosed,colon cancer.Got through practicals with compliment "GOOD" and with excellent marks remarks on my evaluation on physical examination:)


Walked into the room,sat for 10 minutes waiting to be called and here you go,Surgeon Zagainov was my examinor.I was fully clad in my scrubs + cap +stethoscope around my neck,sat before him and i answered what i know.Diagnosed X-ray and its management correctly.FInally,"measure my blood pressure" as he said Malaysian students didn't know how to measure blood pressure.I did how i was thought in Internal Medicine and at that time,only i knew how my legs were trembling as I put on cuff on him(the big shot) while being looked by the assistant surgeon,Goldernburg..i really hope they didn't notice my legs.Well,yeah he has hypertension but his method of measurement bp is different from what i was thought.So,he was actually teaching me:)thank you Surgeon atleast now I know.


I got through like what I wanted only that I don't know what mark I got from him!Now,this is certainly an experience that will stick in my mind for years to come.


With A memo to Krsna before I left for exam today,I got to get fully committed and extra disciplined till the real GOC exams end.So Jr.Doctor is paving her way to her M.D title.Keep the spirit high and show them what you can do!:)


Countdown for GOC theoretical exams start!


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Saturday, April 16, 2011

T.A.X.E.D!!!

*even too tired to sleep,now... :(*
16th April'11 @ 1926


Okay what's up with me?

symptoms:

-my brain is too lethargic at the moment(perhaps I should have gone to gym today!)

-my brain is going on strike against me..no you can't do this to me...pls?


-neither I can sleep nor concentrate on surgery!(too long hours sitting infront of books?)



*need to cover more chapters,don't turn your back against me..pls?*It's just another day away...


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Wednesday, April 13, 2011

1st part Gynae--> DONE!:)

*medical school teaser 2*


13th April'11 @1818


Gynaecology GOC practicals ended well today with a satisfied smile of "GOOD" by the Gynaecologist to all of us,after the days of 'torn' between what to read - OBS or Gynae for practicals.Group E is just too used to being the odd ones out,almost all the time.So ended up reading simultaneously obs and gynae on saturday and sunday.Managed to finish the basic of Obs(the first book of Obs).Started reading seriously gynaecology on Monday(yeah 2 days before teh real exam day!).Managed to cover the exam questions~


Today got a patient,26 years old with correctly diagnosed by me,abdalla,jeff and sara-Primary Recurrent Spontaneous Abortion.She's into her 4th pregnancy(14th week of gestation).I can tell for sure that the gynaecologist was very much impressed with our diagnosis and let me tell you a secret here;we didn't get to look at her case report (though it was given to us),besides the informations the patient was providing to us.And why we didn't take the chance of reading teh case report?Clerking was just too much that we enquired every single details from her that even 1 hour wasn't enough.So since the diagnosis was correct,the gynaecologist just asked us about our further actions:)isn't that a relief?WE'RE HAPPY!!! when came to practicals,2 of us did external and internal inspections of the genitals on the dummies.All is well and ended well:)


Though Internal Medicine is the core of all exams,gynae GOC will never be forgotten with some of us had emotional breakdown when we simply didn't know what to read!!! Congrats 6th Years and our next stop will be- SURGERY on the 18th April:) *let's get going tonight*


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Friday, April 8, 2011

1 down,yo!:)

*med school teaser 1*
8th April'11 @1302


I was out from hostel at 8.10am today with my best companion,zakiah.All that was in my mind today was,let everything go silky smooth as I promised I will prepare fully(for sure) for GOC theory in June.With the notice of 2 weeks for practical examinations,I was hit by the wave of stress(a massive one):already fell sick 3 times(with exacerbations of post stress signs and symptoms).So,Navanita is hitting back the gym tomorrow after 1 month of break!:)


First patient to clark,wasn't in her room and i accidentally begun to clark her ward-mate,only to realise after i asked her name,i Got the wrong patient!Hurried down and I got another patient.73 year old,male patient..hello grandpa:):) he wasn't grumpy at all,infact very much patient and answered all my questions..thank you so much.Diagnosed with chronic gout after all my physical examinations on him including heart auscultation,percussion of the lung,bp measurement.My tonometer created a fuss and luckily sarah brought hers.Dr.Yulia was my practical doctor,answered her and did pitting edema examination on my patient.My patient gave extra remark on me and Dr.Yulia was happy and signed my paper and there I went to the lecture hall with a fearful heart.


The moment i walked in,the second group were in a long queu waiting to be given patients.Glad I was in the first batch.Insidious onset of palpitations begun when I saw Dr.Andrevna(who was eyeing me with a smile,she never left her gaze on me when I walked in),Dr.Ksenia,Dr.Tatyana,Dr.Panova,infecttious and TB Drs were there too.Got analysis on bilirubin,sat on the 4th floor *to be continued after back from Internal Lecture...*


*back from Dr.Ilya's hyperglycemia in ACS lecture*..so I got the analysis on bilirubin/biochem analysis and finally i was called by Dr.Kersenia but subsequently was passed on to the infectious Dr.Answered her well and voila I'M DONE WITH INTERNAL MEDICINE'S PRACTICAL EXAM!:):)


Thank you so much the almighty and the most aspiring and inspiring moments were when I received 3 wonderful remarks from my patient,Dr.Yulia and Dr.Infectious.Still a student here,and this junior doctor will strive for the best:)I still have another chance to make up to /fill up what I'm lack of..so it starts again and the next stop will be on the 13th April-OBs/gynae?Still have no idea..let's warm up the engine tonight!


p/s:saw Dr.Petrov today-macho-ly walking down the 4th floor's hallway but his pony tail was slightly tied to the left today...perhaps i should have taken a snap?lol..


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Sunday, March 20, 2011

ARRRRGGGGHHHHH.......

*smack down your head,if it feels better*~
20th March'10 @ 1401


have you ever been picked on constantly in practical classes?


have you ever been invaded with so many thoughts,all at once,practically every day?


are you lost at the moment completely on everything?


do you feel entangled in a multiple massive knots-don't know where to start and where to end?


do you feel like slamming your head on the table,better still plucking all your hair out?


-if you do,please join me and welcome to the club namely >>>DOOMED-


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