As It Is.

4th August'11@0232

It's kind of too late if i still tell myself-I'm having jet lag,nevertheless I'm still awake.Been surfing the net and here I am,doing one of my favourites-blogging.

Life as a 'jobless' girl seems to be taking its toll on me.Maybe because I'm too used to being occupied that now I find myself being too free.Not very much of a tv/movie person."mom,do you want me to do anything for you?" answer ;"it's okay,I will do it"..duh!Not the type of a person who loves to lepak.I can say,this life is damn relaxing but at the same time it feels 'empty'.*Don't whim,you'll be missing this free period once induction is over!*

On the other hand,Finally today I got hold of The Bhagavad Gita As It Is (The Song of God) after reading 'The Reservoir of Pleasure" --who else could it refer to?It has to be Lord Krsna,always and eternally:).The Bhagavad Gita has always been my most favourite book(though I considered it as the most sacred Veda of the devotees).I hope it's not too late for me to read this thick book(hopefully can finish it before I start working).There are many simplified version/books on The Mahabharata and The Bhagavad Gita but it wont hurt to read the actual verses(700) in sanskrit as it is delivered by The Lord himself on the battlefield.Even before I turn the pages of the holy book, a very clear and inspirational message from The Bhagavad Gita is
"Whatever that had happened,happened for good.Whatever that's happening is happening for good and whatever that will happen also will happen for good only".

A very delightful note on the back of the hardcover of the book,written by the great Mahatma Gandhi sounds " When doubts haunt me,when disappoinments stare me in the face,and I see not one ray of hope on the horizon,I turn to Bhagavad Gita and find a verse to comfort me;and I immediately begin to smile in the midst of overwhelming sorrow.Those who meditate on the Gita will derive fresh joy and new meanings from it every day." Hence begins my self-realisation process too,just a beginner but I have started!:)

Besides engaging myself with The Bhagavad Gita,I'm going to hit gym tomorrow,visited the gym and all of sudden I miss the better equipped gym in Nizhny Novgorod.I can't sit at home 24/7!

Okay,good night for now~

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I Found You Here!!

21st October'09@1840

Who would have guessed in my 5th year of Medic studies I'll discover my favourite Lord Krishna;s temple in our very own Nizhny Novgorod?

Who would have thought,after my constant blabbering about Shree Krishna,would make sevvanthee,too get going to Hare Krishna's temple?

Who would have thought that I would be making new Russian friends in Hare Krishna temple?

everything is just fated and destinied to be the way it is.All I would like to say,nothing happens without Your permission.Thank You.

Since I told dad and mum that I'd be mailing them in detail on my latest exciting days to Hare Krishna's temple,here you go on what I had written in my mail to show them I'm always their lil' daughter with values instilled in me since small:

hi ma and daddy.How are you all?Im doing really fine here..internal medicine classes are going fine.I know i promised to daddy that i will be mailing about the krishna temple which we discovered and will be going every week on sundays(if possible).Last saturday was my first visit there..it was great really ma daddy.I just feel like being in malaysia's temple.The Russians are Shree Krishna's devotess.It's located in a double story house with a separate hall which will be used during festivals/important occasions.I think daddy knows about ISCKON and this one is another branch of it.We all got suprised when we knew the Russians managing the place got hitched to indian origins and and their names are so indian like---maharani,gopal,seva,lakshmi...even my name doesnt sound to typical of an indian..haha...so they asked us to come again on monday and i went again with my friends for a festival called Govardhan,i think mum knws about it when Krishna will lift up the mountain to protect the village.The chantings,singing and dancing are all in sanskrits except when they convey msg which will be in russian.Other than that,i truly feel safe being there with the group of Russians.They are very different from the people whom i see on the streets everyday..not arrogant,ever ready to give a smile and treated us very well since we are the only ones with different skin colour..suddenly me and my frens became celebrities (ha-ha)..the prasadham was served right abt 9pm and i was really too full,it was delicious and tasty.The russians were clad in sillakattu,with pony tails(for hare krishna male devotees) and the ladies were in lenga,sarees,nethi chudi,bangles (just like the cowherds/gopis)..even I was only in my kurta..looks like they are more of an indian/hindhus than me..(ha-ha)..the truestees asked us to come again on thursday because there will be enlightment day but i think i will be going on sundays(from 3 till 7pm) where they will be conducting bhajans,chants,spiritual talks..other days are pretty hard for me sinc it's quite a distance from hostel..ma,i uploaded the pix in my facebook,you can have a look at them ma and daddy so when are you joining facebook?I tried sending you few pix but cannot be delievered to your mail daddy..take care i love you both and I'm glad I found my favourite lord here>

with lots of love,

nita.

I will surely to update more after my next visit to see my Lord.:)

To My Dearest Shree Krishna,

13th August'09 @ 2340

Dearest Lord Krishna,

"Wishing you a very happy birthday (Shree Krishna Janmashtami),My Lord.Today is a very auspicious day to You though You have the most number of birthday celebrations in 365 days.How lucky You are to have Your most faithful devotees with endless offerings to Your lotus feet.Just a small request from Me,please accept all your favourites:milk curd,laddhu that being offered right infront of You in all the temples and homes where You're living in.

I know very well you're watching me adding a post about You in my blog.I don't do this often,so let me pay my best Tribute to You on Your Day."

Dearest Little Krishna,

In 10 minutes,You'll be reborn at 12 midnight and the devotees are waiting anxiously in temple,fasting the whole day to craddle Your swing.Thank You for making me visit Your devotees temple today in Lahat Lane.It was my very first time being there.To my concern,there are only 2 temple of Yours in Ipoh,but the number devotess would have told You the much affection everyone has for You,including me here.

I felt much more calmer after sitting infront of You,watching You and Radha glowing magnificently.Your shine and radiance shone (still shining) on the ones watching You without blinking their eyes.I tried not to blink my eyes,but it was effortless.After all You're the ACE behind every thing that had happened,happens,will be happening.Somehow,I managed to capture You with my eyes.

I hope You will understand me(You're the only one who knows me very well,no one else does better job than You.).I wanted to stay overnight to see You placed in the swing while chanting Your name,but I had no friend to accompany me.So I had to leave You after getting Your blessings.Don't be angry at me,Okay?Even though I'm not in temple now to feast my eyes but,look at me,I'm smiling and thinking about You..yes Your plays and my missing accessories and things.They correlate very well with You.Others won't believe when I say my missing things are with You,but I know the real story:)Okay,I will allow You but don't make me worry too much.

Dearest Little Krishna,

Forgive me for being angry at You for a couple of times.If there's One person I can never stay mad,it's You besides Dad and Mum.I'm really sorry for ever behaving that way.You're my savior at the end of the day.I can always turn to You when I needed peace and solace within me.

Thank You for making me realise,every single decision is mine and I'm fully responsible for my actions.Thank You,my Krishna.I regained my conciousness,WHY I SHOULD WORRY WHEN I HAVE YOU ALL THE TIME WITH ME?

Dearest My Lord,

Wishing You the most prosperous,fun filled birthday.Bless every living entities in the whole universe.Who are we without You?

I hope this is not too much to be asked from You,if You have time,please do come into my dreams today.:)I will be waiting for You:)

Happy Birthday once again,dear Little Krishna,You're my all time most favourite STAR among the rest:)

Hare Krishna Hare Krishna

Krishna Krishna Hare Hare

Hare Rama Hare Rama

Rama Rama Hare Hare.

Yours truly,

the little Navanita.

"People are coming to Me through different paths and I will embrace them on all paths."-Krishna

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