The blessed Me with You in My life

*290809 in Rawang with Ragu,Prakash,Raja Rao,Sis Padma,Meelashinhi,Priya,Hanu,Divya,Sashein and Saisha cutie;the day before I left to Russia*


21st September 2009 @ 0104





As I was reading on oesophageal atresia (congenital disorder where part of the middle oesophagus goes missing and with(or without) high possibility of formation fistula or artificial connection between 2 organs,and in this case,tracheo-distal oesophageal fistula,my fingers reached my DELL's mouse,and the next thing I knew I was reading a note posted by my little sister,meelashinhi (sorry dear,I know you are 13 now but your still a baby to me,sweetie:) ) on my msn profile:





"akka,how are u?We all are fine here.byeyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy."-meelashinhi





"great,but I can't understand anything about the picture."-meelashinshi commented on my new display picture in msn.





I smiled reading her short note.For a moment,everything that's unpleasant seemed to have vanished from my mind.All i remembered was her teen face,her braces,right sided fringe,tall and thin physique and still with her childish attitude whenever sashein pulls pranks on her.Thanks dearie,and I replied as following in her msn profile:





"my dear little sister,i'm fine here ma.How are nana,amma saeshein and you?


prepare well for exams okay ma?


good luck to both of you in finals.


my picture says: behind every successful woman is HERSELF. and now,isn't that motivating?take care there,msg me when you are free.


I'll catch you online on weekends.


lots of love,


nita akka."





Dad always says that we should always encourage others to achieve what they want in life.You should be competitive but should never practice jealousy and do immoral things to get what you want.Uncles always remind me to advice the little ones via email.When these cuties of mine send me mails,I will surely to reply them no matter how occupied I'll be.It's just a simple way of us to keep in touch with me being in this far land from home.





The kids whom I carried and craddled earlier in my life are now sending me messages through emails and smses asking me how am I and yeah,reminding me at the same time to take care.Better still Awinash,my 13 year old nephew will sms me once in a month/on special days to say "Atta(dad's sister),I'm doing well with my studies.All are fine here.How's your exams?Must score all As okay?Take care atta".I'll be smiling silently to myself whenever I read his sms-es..yes he's the only one who will advice me back when I mention about being a hardworker!





All these may look very little in our lifes but for me,I value and APPRECIATE every single simple things like these.These little things are the ones very essential in my life,to make me boast proudly that "there can never be a girl in the world any LUCKIER AND MORE BLESSED WITH TREMONDOUS LOVE than me"!





As long as I have all of you in my journey of life,nothing can dampen my spirit to reach for my goals.And my little dearies,study well and make our family proud..we 're the young generations which they had prayed and wished for.





I'm missing and love you,kids with everything I am.Let's succeed together.:)





0128

Happy Birthday To You,with love...

10th August'09

So there I had it,Grandpa's birthday celebration.Grandpa was on cloud 9 for he had to blow candles on 2 cakes.First cake was prepared by mum which was before our scrumptious lunch,we fed him with his birthday cake.It was a memorable day for him as most of his grandsons and granddaughters were around him on his birthday.I know he missed Ragu as he couldn't take off from USM due to to incompletion of his many assignments.Ram,Rao and Boy were on the phone with him,not to console him but to make him feel bad because he wasn't here to see them!!

Almost everyone came except for Dr.Uncle.Well,no comments on his absence.He's the type who will say.."I will be there,carry on with the plan"..but he won't show up even when your conjuctivae gets dry.Yeah,I know he's a doctor but when it comes to family reunion,you have to MAKE AN ATTENDANCE.It's not always,once in ablue moonla.It's not like maternal family reunion every month of the year!Okay,okay,let him out of this topic now.Shah Alam uncle cam with Prema,Shakila and Boy.Prema akka and Navin Maya came around 11am while Me and the rest were snapping pictures.Prema akka in her first term of pregnancy,looked bubbly and cute.She's grandpa's first granddaughter.We welcomed the future mum and served her till she was like "aunty,I can't stuff food anymore..."Fruits were served right after lunch.

Later on,the girls(including Prema Akka) hopped into Gen 2 and the boys(including Navin maya) got into Boy's car and we went to receive Sravani from her college.Then all of us went to Ipoh Parade as the boys wanted to play bowling.Their spirits were up and after 2 hours,we drove back home.Rao made us his ice lemon tea with 'serai' for tea time at 7 pm..lol!Even the servings for tea is heavy with telugu traditional cuisines-'bellam garulu(everyone's favourite!),burulu,ladhu(only for me,my favourite!) and grandpa's remaining birthday cake.

Vijiya Pinni(aunt vijiya) reached after lunch with prashanthini.Shah Alam Uncle had to make a move after Gany Pinni arrived from penang at 10 pm.She was busy with her work and the kids which explains her late-coming.She came with a cake for Rishu and Grandpa and we sang birthday song for the second time for both of them.Practically all the 5 sibling were here except for Dr.Uncle.

Madhu,Rao II,made the atmosphere at home more lively with their jokes and teasings.Rao had left to catch bus to Kuantan since Mr.Most wanted has to go to work tomorrow.

We were so exhausted and I barely slept because of the talkings and at 5am,Madhu,VIjiya Pinni and Gany Pinni left.After waving bye to them,I dozed off for about 2 hours then it was Prema Akka and Navin Maya's turn to leave to KL.I climbed up my bed for another 2 hours sleep,then Pethamma and Pethanan came saying bye to me.So woke up again,sent them off and I really drifted into my sleep and only woke up at 12.30pm.Too worn out that,after lunch i thought of doing some readings but ended up sleeping at 5pm till 7.30pm.*gulp* Perhaps because of the mixture of foods that I had eaten yesterday,I only had 2 slices of brown bread done with mum's special secret recipe.

OMG,I'm still feeling sleepy after the many hours of sleep!!...am I showing symptoms of something?..

2334

It's Family Time!

9th August'09@0237

Today turned out to be GREAT!Morning,I actually wished i never got up because the moment I opened my eyes,the thoughts which I really wanted to push away,came rushing back into my mind,just like how highly pressured water kept in a dam will come gushing away once the gate is unlocked!Okay,why rant on it when I don't want to lose it either?Let's get back to my fun story ya'll.

After such a long time,maternal family members had decided to gather here in Ipoh,in conjunction with grandpa's birthday celebration.Rao,pethanana(elderest dad),pethamma(eldest mum) reached here early in the morning when I was still on the bed.I was really happy to see them after so long.Since mum was at work,I accompanied pethamma,spending time with her.Later,Rao was keenly telling me about his work,on his experiences meeting Tun Dr.Mahathir and the rest of the VIPs on their visits to Hyatt Hotel.He's indeed their all time favourite.Rao was taken away by my EURO pictures and stories(I saw on his expressions!).

When Ram called around 6.30pm upon his arrival with grandpa,Rao and I went to Medan Gopeng to receive them.All was good.We nominated Ram as the president of MYC with his new duty to gather the cousins next year for a fun outing since he slacked to do so this year!I was expecting to see everyone today but majority will be here in 8 hours time.As we were at home,Rao suggested "comela we go for movie..me,you(me) and Ram".We quickly flipped through the newspaper and was torn between The Proposal or G.I Joe.I was "any movies,I'll go with it" though I was hoping to catch a horror movie.Time was set..yeap midnight movie at 11.45 pm in Kinta City.

After buying grandpa his favourite meehoon soup for dinner,Ram and I rushed back home and got ready for the movie.As we were about to go,Dad and pethanana pulled aside the car and was actually considering to join us for the movie.Mum and Pethamma chose to spend their missed sisterhood time together at home.Probably the late night movie would've hindered dad that he said "it's okay,you guys go ahead".

I drove to jusco.I've never been for a midnight movie without mum dad and Ragu.Since it's after 10pm,I was actually sort of lost my way inside jusco because all the outlets were closed and we couldn't get to TGV unlike when it's day time.We had to take a flight of stairs,escalators and finally got 3 2nd front row tickets.Ram felt like eating even after a chee cheong fun dinner which made him buy a large pop corn and 3 bottles of mineral water.

That was my first time on 6 weeks of my return to catch a movie in TGV this year.I loved the movie by Sandra bullock and Ryan Reynolds.Needless to say that,Ms.Bullock is extremely a talented actress and she had carried her role well in this movie.I loved it..normally I won't go for second round in watching a movie,but The Proposal ,is definitely worth it and can be watched more than once..it's damn hilarious till the viewers(including me) and not to forget Rao and Ram were laughing like mad..:)* and yeah Ram,you have to do that hula-hula dance with mathu tomorrow;p)

I reached home 50 minutes ago.I decided to blog about today while waiting for my late night supper :brown bread to descend slowly into my Gastrointestinal tract(GIT).You know what is more surprising today?I didn't receive any CALLS from mum and dad which is part of their 'checking outs'.Even Ram was like "now,that's weird,not even a call:p)..

Fun-filled day..let's welcome the rest of the 2nd and 3rd and upcoming 4th generations tomorrow.Ragu,you missed being here with us today for the movie,br0.

Okie-dokie,I want to hit bed now,nights.

0310

Unforgettable Days.

20th July'09 @ 1434

So went my weekend(the best,so far!).what made it so special you may ask?It was Family reunion!!! who'd want to miss it right?Nothing matters more than just being present there with my beloveds.3 celebrations in a row: saisha's 1st year birthday party followed by mum's pre-birthday celebration at 12midnight then finally on sunday:bhajans and mum's birthday celebration once again:).Previous years,we used to surprise mum by flowers sent by the florist,this year Ragu and I got the finest made birthday cake(needless to say,very expensive!) for mum.Suspense never works with mum ,why?naturally mum has 6th sense where she can just read something's fishy by just looking at your face,so what more right?when it's her birthday!

At saisha's birthday,I already pre-informed about our plan to my elder brothers,uncles,aunties whilst Ragu went to collect the cake at 9pm,sent it home and joined us at saisha's birthday party.Everyone was there except for my eldest brother and his family and priya who wanted to attend a motivational talk(which later she regretted forsaking the reunion for it!).Because of her,Uncle Surya had to go back with Haanu after the function and missed the second day's fun part.Aunt stayed here and Uncle was actually so restless at home that he actually planning to drive back to Ipoh!

Saisha's birthday went well with that little cutie of mine behaved well,cake was nicely cut and she was infact in her best cheerful mood.Food was very tasty an delicious with my all time favourites:satay and other indian cuisines.

This time around,my nieces and nephews recognised me better compared to at Uncle Surya's and previous years.Few of them were very reluctant to come near/give a peck on my cheek.I,on the other hand,very keen to hug and carry them..how can i resist?My dearies are too cute:) They have a reason to behave that way since I'm not in any part of family gatherings for 10/12 months/year.They know who I am a but,it wasn't easy to cuddle them.I had to ask my 2nd elder bro's junior: 'who am I?What's my name?'...and the answer: a wide smile and i'm sure that 5 year old simply shot an answer "akka"(sister)..:p I was :"no..go and ask nana(dad)"..he obeyed,vanished from my sight and went to my elder bro.The 2nd time i asked him,he gave me the same smile and gave me this 'tersipu-sipu malu' look..I couldn't help laughing and told him.I do that very often to my little ones and most of them will get me right with exception of a few!!

Tashirra was no more that "pohon semalu"/a member of the communist club at the age of 5.When she was younger,she was a very reserved kind of person and only tagged behind her Chinana(youngest elder bro) and othuna(sister in law).Now,she's more jovial and miggles well with us.Her blue iris has changed just like any of us:brown black.She is the miracle baby of the family for being the first pre-term baby.Reshma sai still maintaining her cutesness like tashirra is more friendlier and less of a hassle compared to when tashirra was her age.Reshma actually came and pulled my dress whilst I was chit-chatting with aunties.I was indeed taken by surprise,bent down and carried my cutie.She showed me her mask and birthday party set which she was wearing at the moment:)Nevaena Sai being the youngest of the 3 sisters,was extra reserved(now if I compare her with Tashirra).Her big round eyes,curved eyelashes,curly hair and fair skin makes her the center of attraction besides saisha.

Saesheindra and Divya being the best of buddies since small,still the same...if shane is missing,then you will know divya will be missing too...wherever they go,always hand in hand and together!Kids nowadays are far more advanced -their talk revolves on high school musical,avril lavigne,youtube at the age of 9 and 10!

Nimeesha,sailendra and murkesh are the 3 muskeeters,hanging out together.Siblings togetherness,I would say.Nimeesha and saesheindra are 2 competitors in studies just like Meelashinhi and Awinash.Nimeesha at age of 9,already knows how to look good- with the right touch ups/make ups to go along with her dress.Sailendra is the 'silent killer'..very quiet but never leave him out of your sight!:)Murkesh has his 'donald-duck's' (very cute) smile.his eyes actually twinkles when he smiles.Awinas and Liknesh had missed all the fun and I'm actually longing very much to see them.Awinash is the brainy and a fierce competitor when it comes to studies.

Sister Parames' juniors are the hyperactives ones.Ritesh is a 'rojak' well he is exact Uncle Seema's look alike..with his little tummy bulging out,try talking to this 6 year old and you'll get an idea how knowledgeable he is at his age.Sevitha,3 year old..too active.She loves to mimic like 'power puff girls'.She posed such way in all pictures taken!She can even do fly-kicking.Ragu became Ritesh and Sevitha's victim with them practicing their stunts on him.

On mum's side,yet to meet my senior cousins.The juniors have come down to see me which include:Rao,Sashvin,Sravani,Rishu,and Pavithra.All have grown up and I realise now,it's so much of fun to spend time with them.3 years ago,when I hear they will be coming over,I used to keep all my belongings out of their reach.But now,all are so matured,disciplined and they listen to you.Each and every movement of yours are closely watched.When I fiddle for my Gen 2 keys,they actually ran out ,buckle their feet with shoes and got ready to hitch a ride with me.

When bhajan's were over,Rao made us roti canai,we dined together,cleared all the mess and they left to penang.Rao's roti canai *thumbs up*..:)I'm looking forward for our cousins's reunion very soon.My house is very quiet now with Ragu left to USM today early morning,no kids laughters,running footsteps,bickering among themselves.As for me,I took off from hospital today since I was all worn out and could barely stand with my feet.

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The New Man In You

5th July'09@ 2.34am

Ragu just finished stuffing his luggages with his casual wears and books.I folded his previous faithfully served semester's denims,jeans and t-shirts and kept them in his cupboard.(according to him,those are the old ones which he has no intention on bring back this sem).2 months of university break finally came to and end for him.It will be 2 weeks since my return and now he has to leave.Frankly speaking,not enough.Definitely,not enough the time i spent with him.He is one of the reasons why I came back early this year to Malaysia.(earliest in my 4 years of medic studies).Had I followed my schedule of return,I wouldn't even had the period of 2 weeks with him.Atleast I had that and no regrets here.

Seeing him pack his bags,I felt something is being taken away from me.To be precise,suddenly I felt he is moving very far away from me.I wish he could stay longer so we can carry out the many things we had planned earlier before my return.To my dismay,we only carried out not even half of it due to some consequences and time constraints.Tomorrow he will be off and I will be left alone at home without a sibling to tell jokes and push around.I'm so going to miss him very much,like I always do.

Dad always say that "you're my right eye and ragu is the left one".Truly,I don't know what I will bedoing without him.But one thing that's definite,I will be the most serious one without him in my life.Being the first child,mum used to tell me that I didn't even want to go near what more to touch and play with him for about 2 weeks.3 years of being the only child,I was so possesive( at that very tender age) that I didn't want to share my parents love with anyone else.They say' a touch can make wonders'.I believe that's true.Soon as time passed by,we clicked together and begun the new rivalry between us.It's not something new,we just had something against each other whilst growing up.

Like I said earlier,we bonded but certainly we are the two opposite ones..just like 'yin and yang'.If there's a chemistry between us,it has to be only on Manchester United( I can say with confidence here!).The rest of the times,we just happened to agree on a word when there's a strong force exerting at the same time on both of our minds(miraculously!)

Still,I never wished to be the only child born to my parents though mum used to punish me first when he threw tantrums during his early days.Being mum's son and on extra plus point -BEING THE YOUNGEST- everybody loved him and still loves him alot( and no I'm not envious of him,lol..I have everything including him:) ).He was extremely cute when he was borne,cuter than I was.I loved his hair and his fair skin(yeap,fairer than I was)..too cute till now he will be compared to my new born nieces and nephews.As i was and still 'am daddy's girl,I always had/have dad by my side during times of ordeals especially when got cannings from mum during meals time.:p

My life would have been very incomplete without ragu.Watching him grow ever since then made me realise how much he has changed.Regardless of the many changes in him,he is still grandpa's most beloved,loved and adored grandson among the others.Ragu is always first to him.

Even when he was a child,he was a troublemaker.At the age of 6 years, he got few stitches on his right thigh after collapsing to the ground from his 'mini-mountain bike'.If my memory serves me right,the same year he was rushed to the 24 hours clinic to have immediate aid on his bleeding ear after falling down from the double decker bed past midnight.He was such a brat,wasn't he?Yet,he was everyone's favourite.

Enrolled into chinese kindergarden and continued till secondary school.He followed my footsteps by taking up STPM but was in physics.Formerly,he was more of a very obedient boy.Very obedient indeed.Even now he is but things have changed.As he was growing up,he became very close to daddy.Dad's tremendous sense of responsibilty has been assimilated into him.He got it and holds it close to his heart.He showed interest to everything that;s happening with dad's business at the age of 13 and that interest never once faded from him.Aunties will always praise him for being the most responsible ones and even said my parents are LUCKY to have him as their son!

He certainly didn't want to adopt 'all work makes jack a dull boy'.Like any other boys,he was playful and even now at times but to a lesser extent.Soccer,tae-kwando became his life in secondary school.For him,soccer= Manchester United,a die-hard fan till now!* believe it,at 3am,he just checked the latest news on Owen's transfer to MU on my lappie..*.

Before he attained his teenagehood,everyone said that he looked like mum but now he's like the mirror image of dad.He has what it takes to be a man with responsibilties in life.And obviously,he knows how to rebel and protest now to prove him right.Dad and mum have to give him a chance because he is 21 this year.I can give you the best example,dad and mum planned to celebrate his 21st birthday this july but he had anotehr plan in his mind.He wanted to make something different..he put forward his suggestion --->'let's celebrate my 23rd birthday grandly once i'm already a graduate'..to my suprise,dad agreed after giving much thoughts saying it's a great idea!..see?this is Ragu now.

Being a university student and a 21 year old,friends do play major role here.Dad's favourite comparison "your friends reflect the type of friends you miggle with".Ragu rarely goes out with his friends but when he does,his decision will be so abrupt that he will tell dad "Daddy,i'm taking the car,will be going out for awhile"..late night returns (twice) which i had noted became evident this time around.There was once he came back at 12.30 am after leaving home at 10 pm.Dad and mum went to bed but were still awake till he returned.And as for me?I was the one who opened the door to let him in!Bet dad was more cool about it since he is a GUY! I remembered when I came back home at 1.30 am (my first and last late nite return) after outing with friends on thaipusam day (after stpm),dad and mum were like "I know you can take care of yourself but YOU ARE A YOUNG LADY,should come back early!"...and now this is discrimination...lol.

This time when he will be going back to his campus in less than 12 hours time,being a second year senior,he has been given a car by dad and mum to make his life easier in campus.I know he had to endure the 'lectures' from especially dad before he could make dad undertstand the reason why he needed a car.I'm sure he knows how to ahndle whatever that may come in his life as long as he listens and remebers by heart whatever that has been told to him by mum and dad.

I will be missing you dearly,bro.Another 2 more years and we will celebrate our post convocations dinners together in 2011.That's a promise.Have a safe journey back to campus and my eternal wish for you: all the very best and you will definitely succeed in your future undertakings.Take care and be a good student cum young man.

with lots of love,

nita.

3.57am