Random thoughts,totally...

*think in silence...that's when you understand life*

6th March'11@1905

1.I realized,all that I ever need to stay on my tract is Dad's words.This is why,you're the most amazingest Dad in the entire world,daddy!!!I love you:)

2.The world is very very small.I had a patient who's a head of surgery department @surgeon.I felt too tiny in his eyes the moment I asked him "what do you do?" towards the end of clarking.This is why,you're supposed to follow the rules of taking anamnesis!

3.Don't regret for what you had done,especially if it's not your fault.Let go/don't bear negative feelings and focus on the present.Cherish and appreciate good relations:)

4.Always believe in,everything happens for a reason,don't sigh..just believe in that.Be OPTIMISTIC in whatever that had happened,everything happens and ends in good.

5.If God puts you in it,He will certainly gets you through it!.

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Freezing at -25*C.

*watch your steps before you land flat on the icy ground*

19th Feb'11 @ 0646

The synergistic action of the extreme winter + heavy rotation is more than enough to leave you 'pancit'/exhausted even before the mid week.I was hoping for Friday to come since wednesday and that's not a good thought at all~

Final year with final winter to experience,I'm ACTUALLY being treated 'luxuriously'.The temperature dropped and the whole week it has been -20 *C- -25*C.NO curfew till it drops below -35*C,therefore there's not even a chance to think of skipping classes especially when you have hematology.Still,the whole white world here looks 'icy and mesmerizing':)

Daily multi-vitamins won't secure you from falling ill,what more in Russia's cold(est) winter.So don't let the cold weather conquer and hinder you from carrying out your activities.So,GO out,feel the snow,eat healthly and do some work outs:)

It's a chilly saturday morning and I'm awake after 10 hours of sleep.I don't remember when i dozed off yesterday.All I know,now I'm wide awake than ever before!!!

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3rd Lesson'11(the most valuable).

*HOW FAR WOULD YOU GO FOR LOVE?*

9th February'11@1721

I'm summoning all my strength and courage to say this:

My 3rd lesson for 2011: SAY I AM SORRY AND I LOVE YOU AS MUCH AS YOU CAN (WHILE THE PERSON IS STILL THERE).

You don't have to please everyone and be someone that you're not.But the least and the best you can do is never try to hurt anyone.It's all boils down to words,in the end.

An unexpected demise reminded me not to unleash words orally/in written form.

I promise not to hurt anyone ever again.I have always avoided that until it gets on my nerves.But,only I know,how badly I will be so unforgiving myself after the 'giving back' time.

"you'll never know what you have till you lose it"-and this applies when you utter/use every single word.

*IF YOU REALLY LOVE SOMEONE,DO NOT HURT THEM BY WORDS.SORRY IS ONLY SORRY WHEN YOU MEAN IT.*

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2nd lesson'11

*how did you know?Anyone spying on me?*

6th February'11@1408

Within 2 days of my last entry,here comes my second lesson:

BELIEVE THAT CERTAIN THINGS ARE MEANT TO BE UNBROKEN.

Sometimes,we might walk away(might seem like we're giving up on something) but very little people know that it's actually a period for deep thoughts and to remind you not to get swayed by things that come in between when you're on a game chasing for for your goals.If it's meant to be,it will certainly come back to you:) Don't think what if it doesn't???always be optimistic:)

Tomorrow I will be starting with my final semester in my med school-my 12th semester! Internal medicine will be our very first rotation,got to get up early and head to 13th hospital and get introduced with our new mentor for another 2 months..I wonder who'd that be.Only left with another 3 months before State exam.I got to reduce my 'irresistible activities' and be more obedient to my books:p..wishing myself the very best for my final semester :)

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First Lesson'11.

4th February'11 @1405

1st Lesson for the year 2011:

PRACTICE SIMPLE MIND AND BE MODERATE.

So,I abandoned the month of january with no entries at all except on new year eve.Pretty much occupied,had a real surgery rotation with our ever brilliant,Surgeon Miranov.Surgery rotations could never get any better than this and we're told,he will be our practical classes tutor again the next sem!Excited,that's for sure:)

Holidays for 2 weeks,well that's for winter break.Holidays totally sucked to the extreme this time.Maybe I should have just gone back home,like what Mom had wanted earlier but I decided to stay.1st week was good,I did get on according to my plan and schedule.2nd week,pufff..I'm gone.

Guess we can't avoid meeting with multi-behavioral(not complex) individuals in the journey of our lives,am I right?Just don't let me run into another one,please.

For now,spare me please from all these and let me get on with my new year's resolutions.

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Happy 2011 & Resolutions.

*let the 2011 enfold..*

1st January 2011 @ 0206

Se Novim Godom @ Happy New Year 2011 To One and All!!!How's the celebration so far?I had one of the best celebrations here today with my close friends.Infact,I just got back from the park after walking through the thick snow to reach the perfect spot for birds eye view of the whole Nizhny town.Perfect,seriously...being at the right place with good company:)What makes it so special here?It's the snow and the fun which I'm definitely going to miss next year.Before 1 am,the park was crowded with foreign students and once the mini show and going around the gigantic christmas tree ended,we left with a sense of satisfaction and I'm like overdosed with happy pills!!~

So,2011..welcome.I've been looking forward and anticipated your arrival and now,here you are.You're unlike the previous years,a crucial year for me,a new beginning for me to advance further in life.As much as I have been anticipating you,I'm not spared from the jittery and butterflies in my stomach.This is the year which will witness a girl's life long dream will be coming true in 6 months.A dream of life time,a dream which has been stuck in her head forever-just forever,even she,herself doesn't remember how and when she got fascinated by the field of medicine.In a blink of an eye,I'm already in my final year and soon will be graduating with my degree.The journey has really been too long,long enough till can exhaust one but I made it and I will say this again on my graduation day,after reciting the great Hippocrates oath!:)

I got to make up for all the resolutionless years which had passed,this year I'm determined to make not one but a few which will be guidance till the end of my life.This year determines it all and I'm sure it will be a fantabulous year for me.I'm going to make it happen,it's a promise.

I'm all set to go and face the new challenges of the year 2011.As I had wished a good successful year for my counterparts,I know my very sincere and honest request for the year will be granted too for I believe and trust in what I meant/supposed to be doing.

2011,be a meaningful year to everyone and bless us throughout the next 12 months of our journey.

-Cheers,peers:)-

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2010,I count my blessings twice.

*Thank you 2010 and 2011,be fantastic ok?:) *

31st December'10 @ 0009

9 minutes past midnight and officially,I'm introducing my blog's new look for the year 2011.Though earlier I wanted it to remain with its elegant classic look,the determined me wanted to give a new touch up for my blog and I did it.Simple yet captivating look,I believe:)

So,once again,here I am,maybe it's too early to count my blessings for the year 2010 which will be ending in less than 24 hours but I don't want to take chances by delaying these moments as I already have plans lined up for tomorrow and the day after.Will be updating on them soon.

2010-The year started well,I anticipated and welcomed it with a warm and a great spirit.I take back my words for mentioning earlier especially the month of November being less memorable one compared to the previous year(s).When I turn back and saw the many things which I have/had achieved throughout the year,I'm certainly proud of myself.I made it despite the 'many-not-smooth-roads' which I had come across.Perhaps,others are right,that I'm this one tough and strong girl.I buy their words now:)

2010-Besides self achievements,thank you 2010 for blessing us with new family members-1stly,thijess who's such a charmer and a cutie pie.Love his pouting lips once he starts to cry when a stranger carries him.May he grows up healthyly and be the family's adorable little baby.He's just growing up fast and soon will be celebrating his 1st year birthday bash.2ndly,bro in law,ashok who got hitched to sis prema.Personally,I have yet to meet/have a talk with him for I wasn't even present during their wedding.Anyhow,welcome bro and meet the family!

2010-There's no other bigger thanks I could ever convey to the almighty each year for giving me the most blessed family,friends and dearest who never fail to be there for me when I need them the most.Dad and Mom,I will do whatever it takes to achieve my ambition and I love you two forever,you are the best.Ragu,I'm proud of you too and all the best for final year,bro.Especially to my lil ones/cousins,we have a big responsibilities here and we got to make all our dreams come true,dearies.My forever buddies,your presence and the time I spent with all of us is priceless and you people complete my life.

Dear 2010,If I had (even once) appeared less fortunate or disgraced you throughout the year,do not bear any grudges on me.You've been a very vital year for me especially when it comes to trusting people/outsiders/others.This year has been a stepping stone for me.The year 2011 will be seeing the new me,a total new me binded with few resolutions which had found its way back to me after a couple of year.

Dearest God,this year,I want to count my blessings twice in order to tell You that I really appreciate and very much thankful for all your blessings that You had showered unto the ones I love and I.Thank you from my heart for always guiding me through thick and thin and most importantly,thank you for the strength that You had given me to get through each challenging day.

Thank You 2010.I will be missing you.

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