At the Extreme Hiatus...

*do we look professional enough?*-days of ophthalmology rotation (photo by-sarah repin,thank you:) )

25th May'10@0300

This blog post of mine might be the first and the last for the month of May.I need plenty of extra hours each day(my ever humble request),when it will be granted?I know I'm back in here after an interval of 1 month..neither I am left without anything to be blogged nor losing the passion for words,but the most explainable reason is-I'm at the RUSH HOUR of the year.The time has come,with just 2 weeks away before exams of the 10th semester to commence.With not any lighter or lightest subjects,I've been balancing these two papers.Least had I expected that Infectious Diseases exam will wall just a week apart from the massive paper of the semester-Internal Medicine.

Ophthalmology rotation officially ended a week ago when I completed the exam last monday.I enjoyed learning about the eye under the associate professor.The days of ophthalmology were fun when I finally got my hands on the slit lamp,ophthalmoscope, learned how to measure the visual acuity,visual field.Yet,any invasive procedures(ophthalmic surgeries),parabulbar and subconjunctival injections will surely to send chills down my spine.They never turn me off but just the thought of 'how could these delicate organs stand such traumatic(?) procedures?' Dear Heart,I still root for you no matter what!!!:)Nevertheless,for the purpose of learning,I'm in for ANYTHING.

Madam Dugina's sacred line " Discipline is the mother of success".Guess mine has doubled or increased more once the month of May begun.Others can wait but I'm not denying, I'm missing something and I know what it is:).

You got to excuse me now,I will be having only 2 hours of sleep today before I get ready for my 1st day of Gynaecology rotation.It's going to be a long day with Internal lecture till 4.30pm.And I'm still awake?--gonna hit my bed now.At times even I myself,very much amazed at the amount of energy I have in me!!!

Good night(good morning).

*I'm thirsty for knowledge and I want to learn more*

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My agony over the weekend:(

*daddy and his little girl and mum's girl too;)*

6th April'10@2105

the actual date to post this entry:4th April @0105

What Am I doing at these wee hours?..What can you do when you feel dehydrated,annoyed by cramping pain of your stomach,feeling bloated,tenderness on abdominal self-palpation but with tympanic sound on percussion???What did I eat?Damn,one thing for sure a birthday lunch for sarah yesterday definitely exerted the effect on my ever sensitive GIT.Even a petite consumer like me could be mercilessly affected!!! Maybe I need a hot bottle on my abdomen to minimise the dull ache to give a synergistic effect on already consumed a cup of green tea..sigh!!!My lecture is half way complete...arrgghh,this stomach upset is not something what I wanted right now!!!

Current;y I'm sort of on 'cycle break' since there;s another 2 more days left for my polyclinic rotation.Been doing what I'm supposed to be doing,glad for that but plan sort of deviated from it's planner on last Friday(after 1.30am M'sia time) and NOW!!!...ermm,I've no mood to continue this blog now...(delete or not to delete?????save to draft!)..

*continuation*

6th April'10

Junior Doctor managed to get back to herself...she is all fine..yeay!! Talk about having lil bit of self treatment,no pharmacologic treatment-no analgesics,no aspirin,no antidiarreal medications taken!!!Just gulped down loads and loads of luke warm water,only 2 slices of white bread with coffee on sunday morning and obviously with the many visits to the toilet.I was sooooooo dehydarated and hypovolumic!!!:(((

Dad and mum sensed something was amiss by just looking at my face via the webcam.Though I didn't want to make them worry about me,mum having this extra 6th sense especially when it comes to me,managed to strike the trigger and both of them became alarmed,and infact 'scolded' ,asking me 'why did you eat in the very first place?'...ermm,If only I knew I wouldn't have right?Blame it on my GIT.So,Mum prescribed her special treatment whilst on the phone after the webcam connection wasn't smooth.After 10 hours,I finally had my dinner-mum's special herb soup+ egg omelette+ fried ikan bilis---->that was the best and most luxurious dinner that I've ever tasted!!! Loved it and the herb soup turned out to be "thumbs up*

Morning,before I could wake up,dad sms-ed asking how am I?I replied back saying I was all fine and seriously,I felt whole loads better.After infectious lecture,came back had a cup of yogurt and had my nap of 1 and 1/2 hours before Dad rang up to check on me.Talked to dad and mum,reassured them few times "Yeah,very sure I'm fine now and all better daddy,ma".

I love you both very much,and sorry for making you two get worried unnecessarily.Your little girl can take care of herself,it's a promise:)

My saturday and sunday were gone after the food aftermath..duh..you know what?Now,I doubt other people's cookings!!!sorry...

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I,The Sombong Girl(apparently).

" being the most sombong girl?-anyways,it's fun"-Navanita :)

26th March'10 @ 1400

It's been real a tiring week,even when I had only 4 days of classes since Monday was an off day due to cycle break(an off day before I started with my Internal Medicine subject!)Perhaps it wouldn't have been this exhausting if it wasn't for our super strict and hidden sarcasm doctor.She definitely has something against me.Not a day goes by without her picking on me for even a slightest reason..sigh...2 more weeks with her,gotta get through it.Nevertheless,having her as our practical classes' mentor is one thing my group has been looking forward.Well can;t blame her for acting that way when her previous mentor was the most digeruni Dr. in NNSMA!

Emergency cycle with anaesthesiologist,Dr.Pitchugin in the evenings.How does it feel like having to squeeze your brain/on the go around the clock from 9am till 4pm without lunch to feed your cells?That's what exactly happened yesterday..by the time I got back home,I was too drained out.I know I had to eat for I have been 'fasting' since morning but the feeling of hunger was supressed further.Had a bun,checked my mail and there I went,under the blanket till 8.30pm.After refreshing,a moment in fb with replying msg,keeping myself updated with the latest on TheStarOnline,at 11.30pm,I faced my books..topic for today:Differential diagnosis on abdominal pain,prescription list for my patient of the day and doses on hypertensive crisis drugs,I had to call the day off at 3.30am as my eyes were refusing to stay awake though I wanted to stay vigile till the morning.

For 2 days in a row,I had been getting up unconciously,turning off my alarm and dozed off.Luckily,I still got up at my usual 5.30am and hit the shower.The accumulated tiredness is taking a great toll on me.No,I'm not grumpy but out of I feel everything has been hitting back at me directly right on my face!!!Never ending thick books to flip through...hang on,Nita!!!

Besides all that the week has been good.Had a good chat with Ragu on sunday till 4am Malysian time,received 2 good messages via fb.One of it I have to mention it here,..Prakash messaged and informed me that his engagement will be in July once I'm back.His pre-engagement day will be officiated with family reunion and bbq which will be held in Teluk Intan*loving it!*..I don't think any other place will be ideal for him to intro his would be to The Family.I'm happy for you,cousin bro!!!

We will rock it this july!

I'm not a girl who wears a smile all the time.Though my threshold of turning into a red chilli face has increased(miraculously!),yet the onset is still considered very much alarming.I have no autonomic power on my emotions,so just bear with me,with an addition of a new title: the sombong girl.Thank you.

Okay,gotta leave to hospital in 30 minutes time and T.G.I.F (Thank God It's Friday!)

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~I Knew I Loved You before I Met You~

*sending my angel to look after you*

19th March'10 @ 2240

I KNEW I LOVED YOU BEFORE I MET YOU by Savage Garden

Hmm ohh,I will come

Maybe it's intuition

Somethings you just don't question

Like in your eyes,I see my future in an instant

And there it goes,I think I've found my best friend

I know that it might sound crazy

More than a little crazy

But I believe

I knew I loved you before I met You

I think I dreamed you into life

I knew I loved you before I met you

I have been waiting all my life

There's just no rhyme or reason

Only a sense of completion

And in your eyes,I see the missing pieces

I'm searching for,I think I've found my way home

I know that it might sound

more than a little crazy

But I believe

I knew I loved you before I met you

I think I dreamed you into life

I knew I loved you before I met you

I have been waiting all my life

Ooh hoo ooo,hoo ooo ooo ohh

A thousand angels dance around you

(Ooh hoo,hoo ooo hoo ooo hoo hoo hoo)

I am complete now that I have found you

I knew I loved you before I met you

I think I dreamed you into life

I knew I loved you before I met you

I have been waiting all my life

I knew I loved you before I met you

I think I dreamed you into life

I knew I loved you before I met you

I have been waiting all my life

I knew I loved you before I met you,I knew I loved you

(Ooh hoo ooo,hoo hoo ooo)

I knew I loved you before I met you,I knew I loved you

(Ooh hoo ooo,hoo hoo ooo)

I knew I loved you before I met you

(oh oh,ohh ohh,oh oh oh ay ay yea oh)

I knew I loved you before I met you,I knew I loved you

I knew I loved you before I

I'm back to my oldies (correction old is gold) collection.I can never live without music,lovely songs with incomparably beautifully written lyrics.Being a good listener makes a vast difference..only in silence you can actually hear and feel something~

I really miss the 90's hits.Current songs are just beyond my perception of hearing.I don't favour them as much I do my favourites.From the teen girl who had kept herself on par with latest hits,now I'm just lost with the latest music world especially with the many new faces of music makers.Heck,as long as I have my playlists playing my all time and everlasting favourites,I couldn't be bothered with the new tracks.

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~S.t.u.d.y M.o.d.e~

11th March'10@1410

45 minutes to go before my russian class with a text on investigations plan on a patient to retell.The text is running in my mind,well only started memorising after I was back from my 1st day of oncology class(lasted 30 mins) which will be officially starting tomorrow at 8 am with 'esophageal cancer' topic.Even before the advancement of 1st class,we are assigned for presentations with topics to choose-malignant melanoma,lung cancer,colorectal cancer,breast cancer,gastric cancer,liver cancer,pancreatic cancer and etc.Not sure when we will be asked to present them,I''m guessing most probably next week.I'm looking forward to being ushered into the surgery room to witness some bloody surgeries,as for tomorrow will be colorectal cancer's surgery.

The schedule for summer practicals has been released by MSA.Thank you to Kheng Huat for the updates.As I has calculated earlier,I can be back home the first week of July *yippeeeee*.Now that I have found few of my batchmates who will be going back by Thai,I immediately informed Dad to book my Thai ticket.*waiting for July to come but before that EXAMS!!!*.Anne is incharge for our get away plan in July,informed her about my return and both of us are so excited because the gang agreed and gave us positive feedbacks..it's definitely gonna be so exciting!!!And another 'get away'...when to fix it?*thinking really hard,I can't escape this year I know;p*

Today is pre-friday day..the week passed by very fast with only 4 working days and before I could realise June will be just around the corner!The many tomorrows have already passed by me,gotta SWITCH ON MY STUDY MODE and push the button real hard to prepare for all the exams.Too many things to be done,to be exact..not complaining but just puzzled how am I going to get everything done without any glitches.Nevertheless,I know I can do it if I maintain my momentum.Nothing comes easy,I realised that a very long time ago.Hardwork will definitely get paid later and it won;t go in vain.Efforts,efforts and efforts-that's what matters all the time!

p/s: don't get distracted till all your exams are over!'other things' CAN WAIT till your return to Ipoh~

Proud to be one.

9th March'10@0015

A very belated Happy Women's Day(8th March) to all the strong willed,beautiful (inner and outside),respectable,dedicated,pretty,attractive and in short,a toss for those who are proudly bearing the word: girl/lady/woman.Happy women's day ya'll!!!

It's pretty ironic to call yourself a young lady when you know there are lots more to be attained to achieve the true meaning of being a lady.

Nevertheless,I'm proud to be one:)Though I'm no longer a fan of Ms.Spears,few of her earlier hits managed to win my heart especially the one below:

I'm not a girl,not yet a woman-by Britney Spears.

I used to think

I had the answers to everything

But now I know

That life doesn't always

Go my way,yeah

Feels like I'm caught in the middle,

That's when I realise

*chorus*

I'm not a girl

Not yet a woman

All I need is time

A moment that is mine

While I'm in between

I'm not a girl

There is no need to protect me

It's time that I

Learn to face up to this on my own

I've seen so much more than you know now

So don't tell me to shut my eyes

*chorus*

I'm not a girl

But if you look at Me closely

You will see it in my eyes

This girl will always find

Her way

(I'm not a girl)

I'm not a girl

Don't tell me what to believe

(not yet a woman)

I'm just tryin' to find the woman in me,yeah

(All I need is time) all I need

(A moment that is mine) that's mine

While I'm in between

I'm not a girl

Not yet a woman

All I need is time(is all I need)

A moment that is mine

While I'm in between

I'm not a girl

Not yet a woman.

the ongoing battle between the heart and the brain's limbic system will never tone down till the absolute way out is found and this concludes this entry of mine for today.

now,it's time to sleep!!

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is wanting >24 hours/day!

*waiting for the right time to come*

3rd march'10@1715

This entry of mine definitely will sound like 'the most exhausted girl's entry' ever!!!I think I'm losing my stamina..no I hate that seriously!Then how do you call the syndrome(?) of feeling tired almost everyday and looking damn tired to others?Still,appetite is on,infact I've been quite a 'ferocious' eater for the past few days.I just felt like popping every single food into my mouth...I know this will make some people happy but guess I have to watch out what I'm eating,I still want to slip right into my prefects clothes of the 18 year old me!

I was feeling so bloody sleepy in russian class half an hour ago.Infact all of us were!I was just hoping Mdm.Tatyana will notice and let us go earlier,but it wasn't any earlier that 5 pm.:(WIth clinical pharmacology on the run,life is all back to PHARMACOLOGY with my favourite Mdm.Dugina.Interesting subject,as it has always been but to have a very high expectation on us on the very first day of class is definitely a bad idea!And I can't seem to be able to revise the previous days topics because it takes ages to remember everything so intactly..duh,how am I going to fit everything in my small cerebral cortex?*AN ADDITIONAL HEADACHE,NOW!*.

I know I should have been just gotten under my comfy blanket and have atleast 2 hours of nap but again,I know I've been looking at my blog from the corner of my eyes for the past few days,so here I am today.Missed writing something very very interesting;well can't blame me,into the usual 'latent period':p

Maybe I should get some sleep before I collapse to the ground,lol.

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