Monday, November 30, 2009

A tribute to November~

* Kevin,we the fans miss you loads,waiting for your return*
* courtesy of Nico:few pix of THE BSB in Frankfurt*

* miss seeing Kevin on stage with them:(*



*their ever massive dance for larger than life*












Finally,one more day left for my H1N1 quarantine to end.My alarm rang at 7 today,thinking of going for jogging but it was a blunder because it was still dark and the pathways are all wet and before I could realise,it was drizzling + snowing..(ha-ha),when I'm too ambitious,this is what happens..so,I happily slipped back into my covers and woke up at 9am.










A normal routine of mine,having breakfast while checking mails,I got a very lengthy mail from my 1st e-pal(electronic pal,that's how i address kitty and the rest) @ BSB friend from Florida,USA.It's been 8 years since we got to know each other.We used to exhange mails often,more constantly unlike now..I'm a bad friend even she said it's her who's been abandoning me.Her sincere wishes for my belated birthday,updates on herself and The Boys were the main substances of her mail.Thank you buddy:) I appreciate that very much for you still remembering me.To redeem myself,I sent her BSB's This is Us Tour Concert photos in Frankfurt,uploaded in fb by my other BSB pal,Nico from Romania(yeah,she's the lucky one who attended their gig!).And she got for me MORE THAN 60 PIX OF THEIR GIG! TRULY AWESOME,LOVE YA BUDDY:)










Speaking the truth,I miss communicating with my BSB pals as often as I did last time.I've had so many of them,almost from all over the world(strictly,only girls though!!),from USA,Canada,India,Romania,Korea,Spain.Though when I send forwarded e-mails once in a blue moon,I'll still include them in mailing list,but it's sheerly different how things were last time.Now,only few are very actively communicating with me-Nico,Neha,Valen and Kitty.Even now,we still express our gratitude to backstreet.net(the best(est) web created for the latest BSB news.The site has served us without fail in updating us the best of BSB news and needless to say,our rivals N*Sync fans used to lash back at us for they always wanted to belittle BSB at our own site!! NOw,we(fans from all over the world) will collaborate together and send back our 'missiles' of words....it was fun though,hitting back N*Sync fans who never admits the former N*sync's was a wanna be of BSB.And all that happened when I was sweet 16 and in return,we fostered a good friendship over the million miles parting us based on our love to BSB and their music.Can I get back those times?










All i can do now is only by keeping in touch with my BSB pals and this is it-no matter what/who I have become in future,I'll still keep my pals posted and the love for BSB's music is certainly won't worn out with time,at least not for me.KTBPA and forever! Fan for life!















My favourite song for this week*back to back* addiction:










"WHAT MAKES YOU DIFFERENT(MAKES YOU BEAUTIFUL)"-by THE BACKSTREET BOYS (from the album,Black and Blue,2001,Jive records)










You don't run with the crowd





You go your way





You don't play after day





You light up my day










Got your own kind of style





That sets you apart





Baby that;s why





You capture my heart










I know sometimes you feel





Like you don't fit in





But the world doesn't know





What You have within










When I look at you





I see something rare





A rose that can grow anywhere(grow anywhere)





And there's no one I know





That can compare










What makes you different





Makes you beautiful





What's there inside you





Shines through to me










In your eyes I see





All the love I'll ever need(you're all I need,oh girl,girl)





What makes you different





Makes you beautiful to me(yeah)










You've got something so real





Touched me so deep(touched me so deep)





See material things





Don't matter to me










So come as you are





You've got nothing to prove





You won me with all that you do





And I wanna take this chance and





say to you










What makes you different





Makes you beautiful





What's there inside you





Shines through to me










In your eyes I see





All the love I'll ever need(you're all I need,oh girl,girl)





What makes you different





Makes you beautiful to me










You don't know(you don;t know)





How you've touched my life(my life)










Oh there's so many ways





I just can't describe(so many)





you taught me what love is supposed to be





It's all the little things that makes you so beautiful to me(so beautiful,oh)










What makes you different





makes you beautiful





what there's inside you





Shines through to me(shines)










In your eyes I see





All the love I'll ever need(you're all I need,oh girl)





What makes you different





makes you beautiful to me










Everything in you is beautiful(so beautiful)





Love,you give shines right through me(shines to me)










Everything in you is beautiful(ohh)





Beautiful to me(to me)










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Friday, November 20, 2009

7th rotation.Friday Night.A Chat.

20th November'09@2320








"Life should be like a game of cards,



You make a mistake,



Then fold the deck and start over



It should be just like drivin in your car



Get lost and your navigation system



Gets you closer






But there ain't no handbook



You're on your own



Got no instructions



when it comes to love



Cuz once you done something



You can't undone...."






the lyrics which had captured my heart and mind for the past few hours,been replaying "IF I KNEW THEN" by THE BSB...I think I love the new album very much,already fell head over heels with all the songs.Their main genre from pop music has been imporvised now with R&B and a slight tinge of rock,and I think I love it..guess,from my previous favourites,:Straight through my heart,If I knew then,Masquerade,I'm adding This is Us,Undone and actually the rest of the compilations on the new album on my favourite list:)I'll fall in love over and over again with any BSB albums,so this is the typical me..addicted to the hiatus of infinity when it comes to their music and songs;)






My prayers was answered today..and like I had said before,Group 531E is the schematic group ever...we got Professor for epidemiology cycle when previous groups predicted we will be getting a less 'wanted' mentor.But I told them off "Group 531E,you'll never know,we might get the prof!" and it happened.Man,that woman is just so energetic and full of spirit when delievering lectures.With a certain degree of merciness in her,she did let us have break in between,2 times.We started at 9 am till 2pm..lecture,lecture and lecture..,she;s really good.All the facts were like glued in her brain forever and seems like she has no difficulty in coughing them out....wonder how I'll get all the statistical values inside my head.And this weekend,I'll be buried under my epidemio books.How can i not right?When prof said "being an epidemiologist,our main task is to control" which means each day my classes will be started off with giving small tests on us.Epidemio,let's enjoy it under prof's guidance:)






I've been thinking about this for sometime.Why do people love to be loud all the time?Why can;t their damn brain digest the idea that being loud all the time doesn't prove you right..it only irks people more,yeah more and more towards you.There's another flaw in that damn brain that thinks highly of him/herself "I'm the best and ONLY my opinion matters in a crowd!"I;m so disgusted with that...and there;s another variety of human which I had seen,the one who like to boss around but when loneliness creeps in,the person becomes 'I just follow what you say!'. how do you define these kind of creatures?You can;t manipulate me ever,mind you! You;re no different from the ones who irked you even at the sight of looking at them,last time.Hell with it...these kind of living beings shouldn't be entertained - a wiser thought of a 24 years old.






Ragu will be off to Ipoh tomorrow afternoon for a month of break.Finally,he;s on his sem break after his exams.He caught me today and I;ve been chatting with him for the past 1 hour.He and his juicy stories in USM.I'm laughing my head off here...okay bro,I can see the maturity in you.You're more open to me now,well that makes us even more closer now.I'm suprised at myself cos I'm able to open up to you too!I love the new you,the new you who's always there to listen to whatever I have to say*hugs*.You're the best bro in the whole world!I'm sure we have loads to share once I'm back next year for holidays.You'll be fine and do simply awesome in all the things you venture in.Happy holidays to you,enjoy your stay alone at home with mum and dad! I love you,thammudu(younger bro in telugu).*wink*






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Thursday, November 19, 2009

This is Me:)

*wee..it's just so sceneric out here..love it!*

*531E & 531D in trauma classroom..the tv which had served us truthfully*







BSB's latest tracks have been playing on my playlist for the past an hour.I'm in a great mood.Smiling all the way reading messages sent to me in facebook.Pre new rotations' break time.Tomorrow,my 7th rotation will commence: Epidemiology.No difference there,I still have to get up at 5.30am and leave my hostel at 8am to catch the buses.The only one thing i'm looking forward upon hearing is,getting a good and dedicated tutor for our practical classes.I hope I won't be getting group B's mentor.*I'm crossing my fingers here*.So new rotation,let's hope for a bright day tomorrow..kicking off the cycle with lecture tomorrow!:)






Traumatology,on a brighter side,I'm very positive that Dr.Malishev is very good when it comes to briefing and explaining regarding ortho and trauma.This rotation was considered the most relaxing cycle-->watching med clips on surgeries in class,theoretical classes for about an hour and at 12 well latest maybe 12.30pm,you're free from the hospital.But,I'm happy for what I had done during my trauma cycle despite the many comments saying "another chill" cycle.Dr.Malishev wished us luck and even said"see you all next year for orthopedics".*Definitely,Dr.*






It re-snowed again yesterday and even today.Though all you can see is white carpet welcoming you in the morning,the weather isn't cold.It'll be fine as long as there;s no snow storm/sunlight/wind.Just like today,it's 0*C today..I'm so in love with the weather.I won;t mind/ditch if the weather stays like this forever..bring it on!Right after we got our zachut/signature at the end of our trauma rotation,my groupmates and I (without sara) went to one of the best spots in Nizhny Novogorod to snap few shots.We have always looked out the window on 3rd floor and admiringly said" the scenery is simply breathtaking,isn't it?".hence,today we made our footsteps to the spot!:)






When July 2010 comes next year,I want to make sure that I'm done with all my exams,my luggages are packed and the next day,I want to fly back to Malaysia.I don't want to extend my another 2 weeks here for practicals because this year 5th years are obligated to do our ambulance and polyclinic here.Few of us have started and already finish their practicals on ambulance which totals 72 hours.While on the bus to see Dr.Lydia at Minina,and again,Wani and I were stalked by a Russian man in his 50s.*sigh*.We just gave him our smile and he started talking to us non-stop till we reached Minina.I wasn't interested in talking to him as I smelled alcohol odour in his breath,yet he was a stabil man.He persisted us to be his guests and told us he has 2 sons..etc..*oldman,I'm not interestedla..* I so wanted to tell him but just couldn;t be bothered.He started off the conversation saying" look at these 2 pretty girls" and he never stopped after that.He was very keen on taking us to his house in Minina but Syahrul managed to sent us off and joined us later after he followed the old man to his house!The old man reminded Syahrul to take us to his house next time since syahrul knows his house now!






I know Asians are the 'celebrities' in European countries,well here yes..everyday the Russians will be looking at you as if you're from a different planet.Oh c'mon Russians,get used to being around foreigners,will you?The old man even said,we are very small sized and started comparing his fist with us!Since wani's fist is XS in size,she got bullied the most!It was a pretty much a scene once he started talking to us on the bus that the other passengers were turning their heads and looking at us!As if the 'limelight' we were thrown into wasn't enough,suddenly he exlaimed while looking at me "oh,look at her beautiful eyes..what colour are they?Black or dark brown?"..his doubt was confirmed by another medical russian student who actually helped us all the while we were being bullied by the old man!Mucho Gracias lady!






I was just very happy to get away from him and never looked back once Syahrul became our(Wani and mine) scapegoat! (ha-ha)






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Wednesday, November 11, 2009

6th rotation:Orthopedics & Trauma

*scenery from the 3rd floor of the hospital*

*splints used for immobilisation*

12th November @ 0735








Arigato Gozaimas(good morning in Japanese:)),bloggie.This is my very first blog post early in the morning just before I leave to the trauma hospital:)








To nascent with,I'm a bit overzealous here because tomorrow I'll be having a day off..actually only the girls will be having break after a short and 'ad hoc' notice was out yesterday from the deans.The boys(all of them!) have to get vaccinated against rubella infections due to the increasing number of male students being affected by the rubrovirus.It all started 2 months ago when one of our coursemates were diagnosed with rubella infections.But lately,it just seems the boys are having rashes on their bodies,fever.Therefore,boys get ready to be vaccinated tomorrow and stop infecting the others,okay?lol..and yeah,thanks to all of you for the 'unofficial' off day:)








Orthopedics and Trauma- today will be my 3rd day of tutorial.1st day,since there wasn't any classrooms left to inhabit us,we only had a very short ice-breaking session with the traumatologist and by 10.30am we were free.So officially,2nd day we started our lesson with watching a recorded service done by the Red Cross Association in Sudan, mainly contibuted by the Australian,Sweden,Kenyan Medical Professionals.






0745






* to be continued*












*continuation*






here's the next part of my post which I was supposed to post it earlier in the morning!Back to square one maybe?maybe not,let's get back to the movie that I had watched on war surgery.As i was watching the medical clip,I was thanking God for how lucky I am/how fortunate my life is.Looking at the victims,waiting for hours under the imminent sunlight for the arrival of the helicopter to fly them to any nearby hospitals.I remembered how we the lucky ones will turn so impatient and grumpy in clinics/hospitals when we are attended 5 minutes late.But these victims were just greatful for the medical aid being provided to them that they actually co-operate with the surgeons and physicians.Perhaps they had undergone too many traumatic incidents in their lifes that even a little kid didn't utter/let go of a shrill cry when treated.In short,the victims of the 3rd world country make the most out of whatever they could get.After all,the war has to go on in order for them to exist right?



After the movie,we had a brief discussion on triage and medical management regarding war surgery and later we were dismissed with hometasks on bleeding and antishock treatment.






today(12th november):started again our class with a recorded movie on amputations,graftings,fasciotomy,..and we got the idea that each class of ours will be officiated by a movie before discussions on hometasks.It wasn't exactly a movie which you will anticipate at 9.30am.Who would,please raise your hands:



description of the movie:






location: Operation room(OR)






objectives: amputations



fasciotomy



skin grafting/plasty






additional comments: eerie feeling (just like when you watch the movie SAW)



totally gross(looking at the wounds after explosions)



man= lifeless object(in skin grafting: it just looks like using a peeler/a grater for carrots,using of mini chain like saw in breaking the bones,screws,spanars to tighten the screws...)






I'm not a phobic when it comes to seeing blood/a pool of blood.I can always get away with it as long as the patient is unconcious.Whilst watching the movie,many couldn't watch the surgeries performed in silence:one can actually feel the sensation of being grafted on their own thigh for a skin plasty,the oozing blood (fluid like hematoma) can regurgitate your food upward ,later outward.So the best way to watch surgeries is to be in empty stomach,treat the patient as an innate object,be emotionless with the only motive:PRIMUM NON NOCERE (first,do no harm)@ SAVE LIFES FIRST!






Surgery is something I've always fascinated.I'll just get drawn to them what more if it conceerns about the cardio.I have a dream to watch a open heart surgery (live!) in Russia before I graduate,hopefully my dream will come true very soon;) oh did I tell you that in my 3rd year,my right hand was just above THE HEART of a patient when I lifted his left lung while aiding a surgeon.I can still,even at this very minute,feel how his heart was beating to sustain its function.That was the most exciting and the best(est) experience which I had throughout my surgery rotations.






On the other hand,now all the girls are also advised to go for rubella vaccination for prophylaxis.






Since I'm done with rewriting my Internal Lecture,and now I'm free to date with my DELL for a movie before I get myself under the blanket.This is the best weekend too,why?'Cos it's a 3 days weekend..HAPPY VACCINATION DAY people!:)






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Monday, November 9, 2009

Back into action.

* I managed to take a snap on this rare plant on my way back from psychiatry hosp..what plant/flower is it anyway?*




Good bye Psychiatry and it's time for Orthopedics and Traumatology rotation tomorrow!Dr.Irina Ivanovna Kitaeva delievered our last lecture today after glaring at us upon our answers on "we had copied this materials on our 1st lecture!"..So she continued on theory on emotions and after 1 hour,she left us with the best Psychotherapist in Nizhny Novgorod(well that's what she said)..he's a man in his 50s,good stature and with spectacles.Okay,so you see came about 10 patients(post neurotic patients whoa re under his therapy).They sat on the front rows,and the therapy started with him turning on his radio,asking all of us to close our eyes,relax and follow his commands..okay here you go,I,as usual cannot sit still and yes,I wasn't under his 'hypnotism' but at that very moment lava sms-ed,so I was busy replying that I was wide awake throughout his 30 minutes +++ psychotherapy..well not only me who wasn;t interested but few of us were fidgetting too,* (ha-ha) fil,i saw you completing your summary on russian text!*Moreover all his commands were in Russian,so that was a big turn off for me.As for the enthusiastics,few of them actually ALMOST drifted to sleep!!!




Allright,I know I slacked right after my tb and internal exams..slacked in sense of I wasn;t being very disciplined though I'm still following rules imposed on me by myself.So this is it..freedom and kidding around stops today,gosh..it's already 10th November'09 and I still have lots to accomplish..what happened to all your 'doctor's recommendations?'..okay,since everything is back to its place now,I shouldn;t delay things anymore.I can;t stick to my words without a proper mechanism to control me.Finally,I managed to divide my time and like I had determined before returning to Russian Fed,"it's less than 2 years to go,and I'm going to make sure that I turn out to be a competent one..I will!'I'm going to work for it and any other distractions will not be entertained!*




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Friday, November 6, 2009

Transition Period.





















1st Transition Period.





-related to my psychiatry rotation.My last tutorial class was today with Dr.Irina Ivanovna Kitaeva.We love her..yes though she makes us sit in that freaking cold classroom for hours during our discussions.I enjoyed my classes with her especially the boys..on a special note,Abdalla,yes the one who loves to ask questions in return before the psychiatrist could ask him!He just asks lots and lots of questions,at times it's acceptable but most of the times you'll go.."abdalla...." because of his too inquisitive act will prolong the time and soon you'll be seeing us gritting our teeths and clutching our fists to box him!However,his questions do make sense,particularly the ones we tend to forget to enquire further explanation.On 1st day of tutorial,we learned on the introductory topic on psychiatry and guess what he asked towards the end?"Dr,how would you diagnose a patient from post traumatic accidents?" Dr: 1st looked at him.Secondly answered"We call that situation chronic/acute post traumatic stress disorder..and we will be discussing about it the next few days!"










-basically,she's an associate professor with a wide knowledge on her field.I'm drawn to the way she will give an example on our daily discussion on certain topics.And each and every example related to her life and her profession,mainly her patients.This semester,we are more exposed on how to interview the psychotic patients,watch interviews and finally like today,we watched "Beautiful Mind" in class as the movie is enclosed with concepts of visual hallucinations,delusions,social phobia,etc.I regeretted for not watching the movie completely previously on my own for I remember I got bored after 30minutes I played the movie.Interesting movie indeed,maybe I shouldn't make an early remark while watching any movies in first 30 minutes!










-Before the start of my psychiatry rotation,I said I wanted to learn and get into certain persons' heads just to know how and what they are thinking right?I think i did get near to my objective,at least now I can differentiate schizoid,schizotypal,paranoid,histrionic(just to name a few) personality disorders.It's interesting to know how you can manipulate someone(patient) to get their life story out of them in diagnosing their illness.Alas,I don;t know how I will be reacting next semester when I were to approach the patients on my own...now bear in mind please,psychotics are entirely different from the ones one see in medical departments!*perhaps,it won't be that bad,Nita..still errr....* But what's vital here in curing these patients ,I think is to provide a good support,love and psychotherapy aid with a great compliance from patients.










2nd Transition Period.





-this is totally revolves around my besties.2 days ago,Subha posted her shout out in fb" Love is in the air"..and yes she received many comments including from me.Though she denied saying it's meant for everyone out there but I as usual,rekindled her and refuse to believe(ha-ha).Later on,in my nap,I dreamt of Lava getting hitched/engaged..now this is the best one,don't you agree with me?I got so excited that before I went to bed today at 3 am,I just had the gut to post it on my fb as my shout out and Miss Lavania became the overnight fame with the total of 71 comments on my post from my besties!!! Everyone seems just too excited,just like me,waiting for her big day to arrive!yeay...





-From the little school girls,we had grown up to young ladies now,we can see the many changes which has come our way.Well,I can see what I had gone through over the years.I know what I want in my life though.When my besties(3 of them now are officially already TAKEN) are planning and enjoying their new moments in life,few of us including me here,still remaining so composed..and why is that so?" Got calon ready ke?"--the usual question being asked and the one and only safe and most appropriate answer of mine for now will be -- Just a smile,which will leave the many questions in peoples minds.Well,hold on to current episode,the right time will come ;)And yeah,I remember once me,shalu and aud said we will go hunting from north to south in order to find Mr.Right for ourselves.Now,isn't that funny?Whichever way life may take us,the only wish/hope I have for my girls "whichever path life may lead us in future,the chain of friendship should never be broken,even in the presence of a new person in our lifes..our friendship is meant to be forever and we are born to be friends till the end" .
p/s:by the way according to my psychiatric mentor,"LOVE IS A PROCESS"-- quote of the day,maybe?










Love you girls and subha,anne and lava---> good luck and all the best girls,make sure to be the best and definitely a sincere and a trustworthy one to your another half.










Miss you all loads.










*a big bear hug to all of you dearies!*










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Tuesday, November 3, 2009

Talentime*thumbs up*










Unlike the previous years,4th November has been officially elected for a public holiday in Russian Federation to commemorate after Russian Revolution Day.The real significance behind the day off tomorrow,I'm yet to find out,because even the Drs are unsure about it..then again,what matters is I have a day off tomorrow! Yeay!






3rd November'09-everything around me seems to be very beautiful today.It's just the atmosphere that surrounding me,I suppose.Love it.The temperature is -2*C today,yeap,winter is here people!Be prepared for the snow balls being thrown at you,the heavy thuds on your back due to the slippery roads,the snow storm hitting directly on your faces and what more you needed right?The small park right infornt of Gorkova Sq. is illuminated with lights and the scenery simply calms yourselves down even at 5.30pm (it looks as if 10pm in Malaysia).I was drifting away looking out of the window of the bus after my Internal Medicine Lecture had ended.The white snow makes everything so white and pure..I love this feeling during the year before the temperature fluctuates more lower.




After refreshing myself with a good shower,I made myself cucur and as for dessert,butter and peanut cookies from home,I nestled down confortably on my bed.Clutching my red heart colour small pillow,I started watching our very own,Malaysian made 'Talentime'.Thanks to Soo Ching for passing me the fabulous movie.Since I was all alone in my room,I just felt all good without any interference.I just wanted to be alone and spend time for myself after quite sometime when the previous 3 weeks were snatched away for entertaining others.






Now that I'm done with watching this movie "Talentime",I knew Malaysia has certainly has lost a very TALENTED scriptwriter,director,writer and more importantly a true Malaysian : the late Yasmin Ahmad.I never knew about her till I heard her demise in 25th July 2009 due to stroke and brain edema.I knew she had directed a number of super hit movies better to say "the true Malaysian essence filled movies" but I didn;t take the effort to watch them.All the heart touching Petronas Advertisments which provokes the 1Malaysia and multicultural society during festive seasons were all because of her.If there was one Malaysian with a true spirit of 'No races,Just Malaysians-- it just got to be her.*you will always stay in our memories and live in all your movies,Ma'am..good job in direction,will there ever be another Yasmin like you?May you rest R.I.P*..and now I feel the urge to watch her previous hit movies such as Sepet,Rabun and others.






Talentime...2 thumbs up for that greta movie.If only everyone sees the heart across the culture and skin colour,I believe the world will be a better place to live in.The simplicity of the movie casting a couple of new faces,Jacklyn Victor,Ida Nerina,Harith,Mahesh,Pamelo Chong will make a difference and appreciated by those who loves Malaysia as one community without races.Love,despair,hatredness,jealousy,hope,grieve,friendship are the main touch ups which made the movie simply superb.I'm simply contented because I spent the other half of my day watching this 'cun' movie on my own:)I enjoyed it and yeap,it's my latest favourite after P.S. I LOVE YOU.*damn,I still can;t forget his irish looking green mesmerising eyes*






I know another purely based Malaysian movie will be out soon or is it already released? entitled ESTET(estate)..I;m very keen to watch it.Anyone has any nice feedbacks on it?Please leave a message here.Thank you and happy public holiday to all my coursemates:)






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