Friday, December 31, 2010

Happy 2011 & Resolutions.

*let the 2011 enfold..*
1st January 2011 @ 0206


Se Novim Godom @ Happy New Year 2011 To One and All!!!How's the celebration so far?I had one of the best celebrations here today with my close friends.Infact,I just got back from the park after walking through the thick snow to reach the perfect spot for birds eye view of the whole Nizhny town.Perfect,seriously...being at the right place with good company:)What makes it so special here?It's the snow and the fun which I'm definitely going to miss next year.Before 1 am,the park was crowded with foreign students and once the mini show and going around the gigantic christmas tree ended,we left with a sense of satisfaction and I'm like overdosed with happy pills!!~


So,2011..welcome.I've been looking forward and anticipated your arrival and now,here you are.You're unlike the previous years,a crucial year for me,a new beginning for me to advance further in life.As much as I have been anticipating you,I'm not spared from the jittery and butterflies in my stomach.This is the year which will witness a girl's life long dream will be coming true in 6 months.A dream of life time,a dream which has been stuck in her head forever-just forever,even she,herself doesn't remember how and when she got fascinated by the field of medicine.In a blink of an eye,I'm already in my final year and soon will be graduating with my degree.The journey has really been too long,long enough till can exhaust one but I made it and I will say this again on my graduation day,after reciting the great Hippocrates oath!:)


I got to make up for all the resolutionless years which had passed,this year I'm determined to make not one but a few which will be guidance till the end of my life.This year determines it all and I'm sure it will be a fantabulous year for me.I'm going to make it happen,it's a promise.


I'm all set to go and face the new challenges of the year 2011.As I had wished a good successful year for my counterparts,I know my very sincere and honest request for the year will be granted too for I believe and trust in what I meant/supposed to be doing.


2011,be a meaningful year to everyone and bless us throughout the next 12 months of our journey.


-Cheers,peers:)-


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Thursday, December 30, 2010

2010,I count my blessings twice.

*Thank you 2010 and 2011,be fantastic ok?:) *
31st December'10 @ 0009


9 minutes past midnight and officially,I'm introducing my blog's new look for the year 2011.Though earlier I wanted it to remain with its elegant classic look,the determined me wanted to give a new touch up for my blog and I did it.Simple yet captivating look,I believe:)


So,once again,here I am,maybe it's too early to count my blessings for the year 2010 which will be ending in less than 24 hours but I don't want to take chances by delaying these moments as I already have plans lined up for tomorrow and the day after.Will be updating on them soon.


2010-The year started well,I anticipated and welcomed it with a warm and a great spirit.I take back my words for mentioning earlier especially the month of November being less memorable one compared to the previous year(s).When I turn back and saw the many things which I have/had achieved throughout the year,I'm certainly proud of myself.I made it despite the 'many-not-smooth-roads' which I had come across.Perhaps,others are right,that I'm this one tough and strong girl.I buy their words now:)


2010-Besides self achievements,thank you 2010 for blessing us with new family members-1stly,thijess who's such a charmer and a cutie pie.Love his pouting lips once he starts to cry when a stranger carries him.May he grows up healthyly and be the family's adorable little baby.He's just growing up fast and soon will be celebrating his 1st year birthday bash.2ndly,bro in law,ashok who got hitched to sis prema.Personally,I have yet to meet/have a talk with him for I wasn't even present during their wedding.Anyhow,welcome bro and meet the family!


2010-There's no other bigger thanks I could ever convey to the almighty each year for giving me the most blessed family,friends and dearest who never fail to be there for me when I need them the most.Dad and Mom,I will do whatever it takes to achieve my ambition and I love you two forever,you are the best.Ragu,I'm proud of you too and all the best for final year,bro.Especially to my lil ones/cousins,we have a big responsibilities here and we got to make all our dreams come true,dearies.My forever buddies,your presence and the time I spent with all of us is priceless and you people complete my life.


Dear 2010,If I had (even once) appeared less fortunate or disgraced you throughout the year,do not bear any grudges on me.You've been a very vital year for me especially when it comes to trusting people/outsiders/others.This year has been a stepping stone for me.The year 2011 will be seeing the new me,a total new me binded with few resolutions which had found its way back to me after a couple of year.


Dearest God,this year,I want to count my blessings twice in order to tell You that I really appreciate and very much thankful for all your blessings that You had showered unto the ones I love and I.Thank you from my heart for always guiding me through thick and thin and most importantly,thank you for the strength that You had given me to get through each challenging day.


Thank You 2010.I will be missing you.


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Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Snow Fight!!!

*we want more snow..lol..*


I decided to blog after the many failured attempts to change the skin of my blog's background.They are nice ones but they just don't fit into the 'look' that i wanted.I will stick with my classic and cool black background but not to completely ignore the contents of my blog.The entries/posts starting from 1st Jan 2011 will be more inspiring and different than how it used to be.Not going to abuse my blog for any purposes,I guarantee you that:)


The most awaited winter has finally taken its toll.The snow is just more than 3 feet high.Due to that,there's massive traffic everywhere but there's no honking sounds can be heard,unlike in Malaysia when there's a traffic.No public transports/private vehicles could get you to your destinations unless if you're travelling on your foot.My very 1st time in 6 years here,I actually appreciated the beauty of snow thoroughly while coursing through the snow for lectures and to my destinations.Terrific weather with just 3*C.Thank God,it didnt get any lower than that.My stamina has doubled and became more stable that I could walk more than 10 kms/day.Yes,I walked that far so that I'd be able to attend my last lecture with Dr.Tatyana.Even today,I got down the bus mid-way and walked from University to Gorkova Sq, to be with my groupmates to celebrate Jeff's birthday in Mir Pizza.


Last winter here and definitely snow fight is a must on the schedule!Almost a big group of us went down,outside 1st Hostel and had a good 'fight' for about 1 hour.That was truly awesome,guys!! We should do that more often till the snows are abundantly rich...when's next?on 31st dec?:)


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Sunday, December 12, 2010

Honour Thyself.

* a courageous journey of survival,memory,and self-discovery*


12th December'10 @ 2049




The tittle for my entry is fully inspired by Danielle Steel's amazing work on her novel-Honour Thyself.She's my current craze and undeniably,she's an awesome and a fantastic author just like the rest-Michael Crichton,Sidney Sheldon.To begin with,I got to know Steel's existence whilst in facebook after my Internal exam.A junior of mine posted' "he's never been perfect,but he's always in her heart-Rogue,Danielle Steel.Impulsively,I googled for I knew it has to be an author and I was right.Read the synopsis of Rogue in Fanfaction and I just loved it and was actually planning to get the novel.It's really been ages since I last bought a novel.The last was Da Vinci Code which didn't impress me much.




My weekend couldn't get any better,quiter and calmer than this.My first free weekend where I had the chance to get and do what i wanted-just by myself.Initial plan was to attend my last African Nite on saturday.Wandered at the Walking street for a casual wear but I couldn't find one.Wasn't disappointed as I had a back up plan to go for skating with my batchmates.As i was walking down the walking street,I decided to check out Biblioteka and on the second floor,2 book shelves were filled with English books.The excitement of seeing novels came rushing into me,just like how it was when I was a child.I've been an avid reader ever since my young days and nothing could stop me from getting fully immersed into good and brilliantly written novels.Michael Crichton's works were not available on the shelves but Sidney Sheldon and Danielle Steel's Rogue was there!!!! I grabbed Rogue and was very much delighted.Being the me,I'd always inspected more before getting what I had desired all the while.Few books by Steel was on display but Honour Thyself,caught the lenses of my eyes.Reached for the book and the synopsis was very much appealing and I decided to get that instead of Rogue.Lucky for me,the same junior who had introduced Steel to me has Rogue,so here comes the barter system so that we could get sated with both books:)




After a treat in Mc'd right after Internal lecture had ended on friday,I refreshed and started reading my newly purchased novel.I was very much excited for I have back in touch with my reading(novels) passion which I had abandoned in my medical school.Approximately 50 pages were read and I decided to call it a day and went beneath my covers.Drifted to a good night's sleep and woke up past noon on saturday.Made myself a very balanced lunch+dinner.Even before that,I was already casting my eyes on the pages of the novel and enjoying each and every word.I was just too comfortable in my own pace,right on my bed with the comforter,and my study light on and in addition,it was snowing and the weather was just too perfect for an outing at -3*C.I waited for the clock to strike 5pm so i could go for skating but as if it had been fated that I had to spend my saturday with a novel,the skating plan was cancelled.As much as I wanted to finish this book tonight,I realised I was only half way of the book~




Sunday.I just couldn't get out of my bed when the novel was on my hands.Plan to Krishna's temple got cancelled as I wanted to finish the book today and to a greater extent,I was enjoying my free sunday and it was snowing quite heavily around noon.I couldn't take off my eyes from the novel as it was reaching its highest point.Beautiful story of a woman who had the second chance to count her blessings.I'm not going to tell synopsis here,go and get the book people!!It's a must read.Right now,I'm done with the book and wanted to exchange it with Rogue.




The book perfectly fitted with my concept of a woman.She handled it well ,whatever that had come to her and the novel certainly has my biggest rooting and recommendation!!




Well written,Danielle Steel,good job!:)I enjoyed reading it and it certainly worth my time:)




Happy weekend,a weekend of my very own-and tomorrow back to work...;)




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Thursday, December 2, 2010

I'm DONE,yo!!!!:)

*weeeee...no more exam till GOC in June*
2nd December'10 @ 1415


Energy biscuits lasting 4 hours + a sip of light pepsi + a mini pack of lays...there goes my lunch.I have a sudden surplus of appetite after gynae exam yesterday!!! YES..I"M DONE WITH GYNAE and free from exams till next june..*wide wide smile*.Guess after the many weeks of inhibited emotions due to stress,all became unleashed once the main aethiological factor of my stress has been removed~


I'm yet to get my compensation for the many sleeping hours which i had missed.The first thing that struck my mind after I got my zachut,infact I planned this earlier..attend public health lecture,eat something light and straight away get slumped on my bedupon reaching to my room.But,my paediatrician lecturer had a different plan for me.We're scheduled to present to her our power point presentation tomorrow for 1st time stratification and editting...zakiah came over to my room and both of us got everything done mailed then to fil,who did a good job together with wani:)Our lecturer was very much happy and impressed..good job guys!!! We have like our night meet up today at wani's place for our final editting and rehearsal before our day of presentation to mark the end of our paediatrics cycle next week:)


I have tonnes of things in my mind and the one which is on my top of list---to sleep and to regain as much rest as possible.Now that my gynae is done,i should carry out my plans which have been postponed till now.Few more days of rest and I'll be all set to go again,(hopefully!!!:p)


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Monday, November 22, 2010

bumpy roads.

*I will,if this is a test of a time*
22nd November'10 @ 2010


1st entry for my favourite month,November.Certain things are simply not for public viewing.Who are you to make others sad?If you want to share the joy and spread happiness to the world,you don't need permission to do so but when it comes to handling certain circumstances,you just better get it done using your own potentially still viable brain cells.


My favourite November will be coming to an end in a week time.Forgetting the month of November and it's very important events that have always made up to my calendar?CLEARLY NO!I could forget anything but not the month of November.Birthdays had passed,welcome to the club...more responsibilities,more logical thinking,more rational actions(I believe)..everything seems to be getting more and more,including my care.It has been in me and it will be in me forever for this is who I am,though now it's not directly visible.


In malay language,there's a saying 'diserang bertubi-tubi'.Well,that applies to me right now.1stly,internal medicine +gynaecology cycle.2ndly-well not so of a surprise (twice mind you) when I'm already --whatever- ,3rdly-to feel and pretending not to know the expectance 4th-why am i feeling guilty?I've done enough on my part and final 5th-hallo,when can I do my gynae exam?why is the prof so busy???????????????????????I so wanna be free without having have to mug my head with gynae...


Honestly not very fine right now.Too many things in head,having sleepless nights with weird dreams..okay come on,I don't get my beautiful 8 hours of sleep,so can you like just let me sleep soundly without anything that has to interfere with my sleep daily?The more you try to forget and say no,the more stronger it stays in your mind..I need a trepanation to decrease my Intracranial pressure~


The month of November which has always provided the most precious memories,has a very little thing to offer me this year.Albeit that,on a more positive and a cheerful note,I've been doing what interests me ever since 2nd November.


And now,with gynae exam's date has been postponed again,the owl is resorting to bed right now.Good night~


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Saturday, October 30, 2010

a year ago…down the memory lane…

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*30th October’10 after midnight…it’s snowing..from my room’s window…*

30th October’10 @ 19.33

Did you know..procrastination or better to say when you miss an exam date,everything else get adjourned too?Though gynae cycle was my 1st cycle,I only can get done with my exam in the next coming 2 weeks.All was because of internal exam and when I decided to get gynae done last Monday,the doctor didn’t show up due to overwhelming workload(i assume) and only turned up after we left the hospital..damn!!! I so wanted to get it done so that I’d be able to revise my other subjects which need my equal attention too,but now…at least,I was done reading and going through them,now all i got to do is to reinsert them in my mind and obviously,MEMORISE every single fact of it…I’m not spared here,let’s do it and finish it and be free from exams till GOC exams in spring!!

New subject in 11th semester was Occupational Diseases for 6 days.I enjoyed listening to Prof.Troshen’s lectures and classes as I regard him,someone who wants to pass his wide knowledge to us.The symptoms of pneumoconiosis can mimic bronchitis symptoms,can resemble X-ray image of TB…what will happen if you misdiagnose it?all in all,I enjoyed the classes and still attending his lectures though to be honest I nearly fell asleep(but i swear,I didn’t) on his first lecture-Introduction to Occupational diseases..the statistics and graphs are just too much to comprehendSmile with tongue out

Currently with internal cycle-guess this semester,Group 631E is the floating group but on the bright side,we can have the taste of having different doctors in ‘drilling’ us.Part 1 for 5 days of internal medicine ended with Dr.Tatyana,my favourite internal lecturer ever.One of a kind and definitely the best.Second part of Internal Medicine continues with Dr.Panova,started on Friday and I believe it will go on smoothly.She’s equally as good as Dr.Tatyana-she just enjoys diverting her talk from DM to other issues and finally will get back to DM.I could see the vast knowledge in her and perhaps she is an avid reader of anything that concerns about health!!!We were informed earlier that our classes with her will be lasting only till 12th Nov,and that’s like for only 2 weeks from now on?..so who’s next in charge of us?Dr.Ilya,Dr.Petrov or the almighty Dr.Andrevna?Ain’t this internal medicine cycle of mine is peaking its hiatus of suspense?I shall see what happens next in 2 weeks time…

Next Friday will be Diwali..yes,my last Diwali abroad.Yippee..after this,my colourful Diwali with dad,mum,ragu,uncles,aunties,cousins,and my relatives---I just can’t to be back home next year!!!

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Sunday, October 10, 2010

CSI casts.

*an aborted foetus*

*abraded wound on the extremity*

10th Oct'10 @ 1310




10.10.10-I got to make an entry today!!what's the big buzz about this day?I've no clue but all i know this so called 'i-dont-know-why' it's so important date is just all over my fb feeds..so let's make it a 'memorable' one by publishing an entry.




Recently,I'm having Forensic sciences cycle.It's been almost 2 weeks and I only have another 3 more days to end this cycle.Pretty much sad,because I'm actually enjoying this cycle very much..ask me why?for a couple of reasons I would state-1stly,it's my most relaxing cycle(no preparation is needed before classes the following days,unlike many other subjects),2ndly-forensic science was my option besides medicine during my form 6 days and 3rdly-the classroom and what we do in the class is way to cool--:), 4th-this branch of science plays a major role in medicine= in a criminology aspect:) 5th-the lecturer(we got his name all wrong in our case reports)..darn,and yeah he was actually a very easy going guy,compared to how he is in lectures..very schematic indeed and he actually checks the attendance one by one.One setback: it's very hard to rewrite whatever he was reading out(he reads only once) and his terms and pronounciations~




1st day of class-AWESOME,it was my first day of live autopsy.Corpse was found dead in his apartment.I got a better insight on how they do the post mortem from top to toe,from external investigation to inner investigation.56 year old,alcoholic man,with vomitting mass on his shirt,mouth,hemorrhages in his eyes,edema of the brain and lung.the final diagnosis was:death due to aspiration caused by alcohol.We passed up a case report after a week.And I realised,there's a very thin line or maybe there's no difference between a butcher and a forensic doctor.




the following practical classes were only in the class.THe class room is creepily cool with dead models on display,type of weapons used(real ones),schemes of how to make diagnosis,type of wounds found on the corpses,extracted organs with defects~




As much as I'm enjoying the classes,soon I will be having a very hectic cycles coming up-next week on thursday onwards will be started with occupational diseases for another 6 days before getting myself fully committed to internal medicine.




I think I missed out this prime line---"OMG,IT's ALREADY OCTOBER!!!!":))))))))) *big and wide smile of mine*




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Friday, September 24, 2010

37 more weeks to GO!!!!

*soon home for good...:)))))*
25th September'10 @ 0213


holla bloggie!!! a very good morning to ya:))))This is my 1st free weekend after 3 weeks of my struggle to complete my internal and I made it!!:))) officially a 6th year and just another 37 weeks to go before i return home for good~ wow,time will certainly fly very fast,without me realising it...as for now,i've been having my post exam syndrome and brain is demanding for a break before I get started on my gynae exam.Gynae exam will be my last exam in my 6 years of med school!!!(and I've excluded state exams here!)..


As I was having my daily rides to obs hospital in aftozavod,I know this autumn will be my last one here.I can never deny that,I will be missing the awesome weather here especially during autumn and spring.Winter has been my favourite too but not when the weather drops to the core.I simply love walking here unlike back at home where i'd insist on a ride even to a nearby shop.


Secondly,Russian hunks!!! OMG,these guys are certainly cute(i'm saying this again in my 6th year!!).Despite their cuteness,what actually draws a girl towards them?From my perspective,they respect girls much(atleast they don;t whistle whilst a girl is passing by unlike in Malaysia) and when they actually stop their vehicles to let you cross the road:)Good values should be treasured and Russians are good samaritans too with an excpetion of few black sheep(s).I will be missing "zakiah,tengok..comel la" callings once June 2011 comes..:p


3rdly,the doctors whom I respect and look up all the time.Final meeting up face to face will be with them for my state exam next may and then..i"m done~nO more adrenaline rush to face them in order to answer exam questions,no more the mighty Dr.Andrevna who will be laughing hastily at your so called 'immature' answers.These mentors cant be replaced ever.When others say these mentors pick on students,I took it in a more positive way...all i can say,I want to be like them especially soemone like Dr.Andrevna.Perhaps I'd be hated but who cares?It's the knowledge and the approach to safe a life,is what matters.Though there's always been a double standard when it comes to Russian graduates,I'd like to emphasize here that Russia thought us something more than just studies---it's all about facing the challenges in life with a determined courage.I can;t say I'm fully prepared for next year but I know I'm still learning and I'd strive for the best till i reach my aim.:)


Last but not least,I'm sure now I'd be missing my room 410 much more when now I'm having my 5 years+++ room ONLY to MYSELF.It just feels like I'm in my room back at home.Yeay:)

Thank you very very much kok meng,zakiah and soo ching for helping me to refurbish my room:) thanks,guys:)


Okay I better put a stop and hit my comfy bed...and finally I could let the lights on while I'm sleeping..no more worrying about anything!!!!:)))))) nites:)


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Friday, August 20, 2010

FINAL YEAR!!!!!:)

*a life time dream...*

The jolly and excited mood is fading off day by day as the days are coming closer for me to board the plane next sunday at 2am.Summer holidays of 2010 is coming to an end.Though part of me wants to stay longer here in my home,I'm actually excited to embark into my final year and come back to Malaysia with a scroll after 10 months.Still...who'd resist holidays,am I right?


I came back with loads of plan(kind of organised) to be done over the holidays but darn!!!I was at my worst by being an incredible procrastinator...well,maybe I shouldn';t exaggerate too much but nita,you didn't go according to your plan and you gotta admit that!First of all,i didn't expect this year there'd be too many family reunions where I had to travel practically every weekend.I didn't expect I will be having one day road trip to KL/teluk intan.Trip to teluk intan,I don't mind..anytime!but to go to other places,I'd rather stay in my comfort zone--my home and in my room.


I wasn't really bored staying without ragu at home.Dad and mum have been a great companion.I enjoyed it very much though we only spent time at home,before going to bed(this is one thing i will miss very much,long chats and disturbings before sleeping) and dining at restaurants.No family outings since ragu is all the way in USM prior to his 3rd year new sem.Snippets among the days been outings with my besties and all in all,holidays were fun--a quiet and been a decision making period.What's with all this new things right?But,I got into dad and mum's mind and I know what they want.So,let everything happen as it have been planned instead of if it's mean to be,it will certainly happen once for real.


Final year and let's make it a memorable one.All the best to me.


*whatever that's on it's way to me,you're welcome and will be part of my life cycle.Whatever that might be.*


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Saturday, July 31, 2010

over the years...

-I must grasp more-
1520 @ 31st July'10


Screw me for posting an entry almost a month ago and finally after a request from shalu,I decided to make an entry today.A month has gone and another month is on its way..august!!!Not looking forward,wasn't expecting time to pass by me fast,but on another thought,this time,it will be my last and final 'go-back' to my 2nd home: Russian Fed for my final year of my 6 years of medical studies.Happy,extremely happy but I know for definite that I will be missing Nizhny,memories of being abroad +medical studies+new friends+ETC+euro tours are the very few things which I will be missing much.I've had a fair share in all these.


Another phase of life is waiting for me eagerly.A Doctor's life.I know it won't be any easier.I used to mourn during high school days,"damn,I'm stressed..."...during form 6 :"man,how am I going to get through these subjects?It's way stressful than form 5"...But now in Medic line,I realised the true meaning of "STRESS".That's when I came to my self-realisation" "should have studied more harder,yes harder and harder..." and now the dissatisfaction still lingers in my mind whenever it gets a chance to invade me..medic studies,no joke -i always have these 'threatening voices' in my mind saying -you gotta do well,you will be dealing with lifes----what could be more frightening than this right?The mass evolution of medicine nearly every day proves the fact that a physician has something new to learn every day.Being a Junior Doctor,I won't claim myself as the superior one.Still,I would admit humbly:I still have a long way to go.6 years of studies which will be coming to an end next year in June,is just the beginning.The real drama of my life will enfold soon...


JUly'11,I know I will be busy preparing all the necessities to start my new life.I know I will be waiting more anxiously to receive my posting letter from MMA,I know I will be packing to move out (if I ever get posted to elsewhere besides in ipoh),I know I will be spending most of my life in hospitals,I know I will be having a very little time for my family and friends,I know I wont be able to just drive and meet up with my buddies at a mall after a ring(like now!)...a busy bee's life(perhaps 100 fold than that is peeping at me)..I chose this,yes I know but now for sure I can tell that---for the past 22 years of my life;books have played the major role and life has become more serious,I wish it's less serious and less demanding(slight regret is there,to be honest ).


Medical studies and memories cannot be separated.Memories can keep us alive though at times it can be pretty ugly.What all of us need is a memorable one.So the best is,keep the beautiful ones which gave you the happiest moment in life and throw the rest away.Things and people will change,hence don't compromise--you got ur life to live on,let the other person to mend and change their life for better.Nature of forgiving shouldn't be taken for granted...stand firm with ur decisions,don't hold any grudges on others(even on ur enemies),focus in what u have to do and be who you are,but when you have to EXPLODE,please don't bottle up ur anger.Let it go.


I'm not a philosopher wanna-be,just an ordinary girl..I'm not superior/great but I will always remain as me for years to come.I don't throw people out of my life but expect the unexpected when you mistreat me.:)


Well,I'm very much looking forward for tomorrow for an outing with aud,sathia,vicks..5 days at home with the idiot box playing and airing some crappy movies,is just too much to bear with..can't wait to see the rest tomorrow..gonna have a long day outing and surely will be missing those absentees;shalu,sree,subha,anne....okay,signing off for now.


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Wednesday, July 7, 2010

from my comfy room...

*in vicks myvi on 3rd July'10*

*1st incomplete reunion on 27th June'10*

9th July'10






It's going to be 2 weeks since my return for summer break.No practicals for 2 months like any other years..so I was/am lazing at home.With my bestest girlfriend at home now 24/7,I'm being fed with the most tempting home made foods in order to make me gain weight...I'm enjoying myself being pampered that way and what could be most relaxing than just resting my head on daddy's chest before I say 'good nite,daddy,ma'.




Outings were good with my buddies.Had abundant fun and catching up with each other.This year's reunion will be so incomplete for the very first time as the actual date has not been set.I know subha,vicks and anne are waiting anxiously for 17th July for us to gather for lisa's wedding.


Lisa,a school mate of mine--->same age as me,sent her wedding and reception invitations message via fb.Yeah,me too pretty much looking forward for 17th but only one thing is holding me back and the reason---all of us gotta be in sarees...ermm,now how am I going to last in saree for hours?I had good experience 3 years ago for Sis Padma's wedding but now being 24+++,I think it is appropiate to clad saree to attend functions especially when you are 'complelled' by your besties!!..Shalu and lava will be coming down for the wedding and to my dismay,that probably will be my first and last chance of meeting up with them.




Week days: my time is all occupied with dad mum and ragu and weekends(past 2 weeks),I was out with my buddies and spent jolly good time and definitely more food and reunions(family and friends) to be enjoyed and treasured:))))




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Monday, May 24, 2010

At the Extreme Hiatus...

*do we look professional enough?*-days of ophthalmology rotation (photo by-sarah repin,thank you:) )


This blog post of mine might be the first and the last for the month of May.I need plenty of extra hours each day(my ever humble request),when it will be granted?I know I'm back in here after an interval of 1 month..neither I am left without anything to be blogged nor losing the passion for words,but the most explainable reason is-I'm at the RUSH HOUR of the year.The time has come,with just 2 weeks away before exams of the 10th semester to commence.With not any lighter or lightest subjects,I've been balancing these two papers.Least had I expected that Infectious Diseases exam will wall just a week apart from the massive paper of the semester-Internal Medicine.


Ophthalmology rotation officially ended a week ago when I completed the exam last monday.I enjoyed learning about the eye under the associate professor.The days of ophthalmology were fun when I finally got my hands on the slit lamp,ophthalmoscope, learned how to measure the visual acuity,visual field.Yet,any invasive procedures(ophthalmic surgeries),parabulbar and subconjunctival injections will surely to send chills down my spine.They never turn me off but just the thought of 'how could these delicate organs stand such traumatic(?) procedures?' Dear Heart,I still root for you no matter what!!!:)Nevertheless,for the purpose of learning,I'm in for ANYTHING.


Madam Dugina's sacred line " Discipline is the mother of success".Guess mine has doubled or increased more once the month of May begun.Others can wait but I'm not denying, I'm missing something and I know what it is:).


You got to excuse me now,I will be having only 2 hours of sleep today before I get ready for my 1st day of Gynaecology rotation.It's going to be a long day with Internal lecture till 4.30pm.And I'm still awake?--gonna hit my bed now.At times even I myself,very much amazed at the amount of energy I have in me!!!


Good night(good morning).


*I'm thirsty for knowledge and I want to learn more*


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Saturday, April 3, 2010

My agony over the weekend:(

*daddy and his little girl and mum's girl too;)*




the actual date to post this entry:4th April @0105






What Am I doing at these wee hours?..What can you do when you feel dehydrated,annoyed by cramping pain of your stomach,feeling bloated,tenderness on abdominal self-palpation but with tympanic sound on percussion???What did I eat?Damn,one thing for sure a birthday lunch for sarah yesterday definitely exerted the effect on my ever sensitive GIT.Even a petite consumer like me could be mercilessly affected!!! Maybe I need a hot bottle on my abdomen to minimise the dull ache to give a synergistic effect on already consumed a cup of green tea..sigh!!!My lecture is half way complete...arrgghh,this stomach upset is not something what I wanted right now!!!






Current;y I'm sort of on 'cycle break' since there;s another 2 more days left for my polyclinic rotation.Been doing what I'm supposed to be doing,glad for that but plan sort of deviated from it's planner on last Friday(after 1.30am M'sia time) and NOW!!!...ermm,I've no mood to continue this blog now...(delete or not to delete?????save to draft!)..




*continuation*


6th April'10




Junior Doctor managed to get back to herself...she is all fine..yeay!! Talk about having lil bit of self treatment,no pharmacologic treatment-no analgesics,no aspirin,no antidiarreal medications taken!!!Just gulped down loads and loads of luke warm water,only 2 slices of white bread with coffee on sunday morning and obviously with the many visits to the toilet.I was sooooooo dehydarated and hypovolumic!!!:(((




Dad and mum sensed something was amiss by just looking at my face via the webcam.Though I didn't want to make them worry about me,mum having this extra 6th sense especially when it comes to me,managed to strike the trigger and both of them became alarmed,and infact 'scolded' ,asking me 'why did you eat in the very first place?'...ermm,If only I knew I wouldn't have right?Blame it on my GIT.So,Mum prescribed her special treatment whilst on the phone after the webcam connection wasn't smooth.After 10 hours,I finally had my dinner-mum's special herb soup+ egg omelette+ fried ikan bilis---->that was the best and most luxurious dinner that I've ever tasted!!! Loved it and the herb soup turned out to be "thumbs up*




Morning,before I could wake up,dad sms-ed asking how am I?I replied back saying I was all fine and seriously,I felt whole loads better.After infectious lecture,came back had a cup of yogurt and had my nap of 1 and 1/2 hours before Dad rang up to check on me.Talked to dad and mum,reassured them few times "Yeah,very sure I'm fine now and all better daddy,ma".


I love you both very much,and sorry for making you two get worried unnecessarily.Your little girl can take care of herself,it's a promise:)




My saturday and sunday were gone after the food aftermath..duh..you know what?Now,I doubt other people's cookings!!!sorry...




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Friday, March 26, 2010

I,The Sombong Girl(apparently).

" being the most sombong girl?-anyways,it's fun"-Navanita :)
26th March'10 @ 1400




It's been real a tiring week,even when I had only 4 days of classes since Monday was an off day due to cycle break(an off day before I started with my Internal Medicine subject!)Perhaps it wouldn't have been this exhausting if it wasn't for our super strict and hidden sarcasm doctor.She definitely has something against me.Not a day goes by without her picking on me for even a slightest reason..sigh...2 more weeks with her,gotta get through it.Nevertheless,having her as our practical classes' mentor is one thing my group has been looking forward.Well can;t blame her for acting that way when her previous mentor was the most digeruni Dr. in NNSMA!




Emergency cycle with anaesthesiologist,Dr.Pitchugin in the evenings.How does it feel like having to squeeze your brain/on the go around the clock from 9am till 4pm without lunch to feed your cells?That's what exactly happened yesterday..by the time I got back home,I was too drained out.I know I had to eat for I have been 'fasting' since morning but the feeling of hunger was supressed further.Had a bun,checked my mail and there I went,under the blanket till 8.30pm.After refreshing,a moment in fb with replying msg,keeping myself updated with the latest on TheStarOnline,at 11.30pm,I faced my books..topic for today:Differential diagnosis on abdominal pain,prescription list for my patient of the day and doses on hypertensive crisis drugs,I had to call the day off at 3.30am as my eyes were refusing to stay awake though I wanted to stay vigile till the morning.




For 2 days in a row,I had been getting up unconciously,turning off my alarm and dozed off.Luckily,I still got up at my usual 5.30am and hit the shower.The accumulated tiredness is taking a great toll on me.No,I'm not grumpy but out of I feel everything has been hitting back at me directly right on my face!!!Never ending thick books to flip through...hang on,Nita!!!




Besides all that the week has been good.Had a good chat with Ragu on sunday till 4am Malysian time,received 2 good messages via fb.One of it I have to mention it here,..Prakash messaged and informed me that his engagement will be in July once I'm back.His pre-engagement day will be officiated with family reunion and bbq which will be held in Teluk Intan*loving it!*..I don't think any other place will be ideal for him to intro his would be to The Family.I'm happy for you,cousin bro!!!


We will rock it this july!




I'm not a girl who wears a smile all the time.Though my threshold of turning into a red chilli face has increased(miraculously!),yet the onset is still considered very much alarming.I have no autonomic power on my emotions,so just bear with me,with an addition of a new title: the sombong girl.Thank you.




Okay,gotta leave to hospital in 30 minutes time and T.G.I.F (Thank God It's Friday!)




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Friday, March 19, 2010

~I Knew I Loved You before I Met You~

*sending my angel to look after you*


19th March'10 @ 2240






I KNEW I LOVED YOU BEFORE I MET YOU by Savage Garden






Hmm ohh,I will come



Maybe it's intuition



Somethings you just don't question



Like in your eyes,I see my future in an instant



And there it goes,I think I've found my best friend






I know that it might sound crazy



More than a little crazy



But I believe






I knew I loved you before I met You



I think I dreamed you into life



I knew I loved you before I met you



I have been waiting all my life






There's just no rhyme or reason



Only a sense of completion



And in your eyes,I see the missing pieces



I'm searching for,I think I've found my way home






I know that it might sound



more than a little crazy



But I believe






I knew I loved you before I met you



I think I dreamed you into life



I knew I loved you before I met you



I have been waiting all my life






Ooh hoo ooo,hoo ooo ooo ohh



A thousand angels dance around you



(Ooh hoo,hoo ooo hoo ooo hoo hoo hoo)



I am complete now that I have found you






I knew I loved you before I met you



I think I dreamed you into life



I knew I loved you before I met you



I have been waiting all my life






I knew I loved you before I met you



I think I dreamed you into life



I knew I loved you before I met you



I have been waiting all my life






I knew I loved you before I met you,I knew I loved you



(Ooh hoo ooo,hoo hoo ooo)



I knew I loved you before I met you,I knew I loved you



(Ooh hoo ooo,hoo hoo ooo)



I knew I loved you before I met you



(oh oh,ohh ohh,oh oh oh ay ay yea oh)



I knew I loved you before I met you,I knew I loved you



I knew I loved you before I






I'm back to my oldies (correction old is gold) collection.I can never live without music,lovely songs with incomparably beautifully written lyrics.Being a good listener makes a vast difference..only in silence you can actually hear and feel something~






I really miss the 90's hits.Current songs are just beyond my perception of hearing.I don't favour them as much I do my favourites.From the teen girl who had kept herself on par with latest hits,now I'm just lost with the latest music world especially with the many new faces of music makers.Heck,as long as I have my playlists playing my all time and everlasting favourites,I couldn't be bothered with the new tracks.





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Thursday, March 11, 2010

~S.t.u.d.y M.o.d.e~






45 minutes to go before my russian class with a text on investigations plan on a patient to retell.The text is running in my mind,well only started memorising after I was back from my 1st day of oncology class(lasted 30 mins) which will be officially starting tomorrow at 8 am with 'esophageal cancer' topic.Even before the advancement of 1st class,we are assigned for presentations with topics to choose-malignant melanoma,lung cancer,colorectal cancer,breast cancer,gastric cancer,liver cancer,pancreatic cancer and etc.Not sure when we will be asked to present them,I''m guessing most probably next week.I'm looking forward to being ushered into the surgery room to witness some bloody surgeries,as for tomorrow will be colorectal cancer's surgery.




The schedule for summer practicals has been released by MSA.Thank you to Kheng Huat for the updates.As I has calculated earlier,I can be back home the first week of July *yippeeeee*.Now that I have found few of my batchmates who will be going back by Thai,I immediately informed Dad to book my Thai ticket.*waiting for July to come but before that EXAMS!!!*.Anne is incharge for our get away plan in July,informed her about my return and both of us are so excited because the gang agreed and gave us positive feedbacks..it's definitely gonna be so exciting!!!And another 'get away'...when to fix it?*thinking really hard,I can't escape this year I know;p*




Today is pre-friday day..the week passed by very fast with only 4 working days and before I could realise June will be just around the corner!The many tomorrows have already passed by me,gotta SWITCH ON MY STUDY MODE and push the button real hard to prepare for all the exams.Too many things to be done,to be exact..not complaining but just puzzled how am I going to get everything done without any glitches.Nevertheless,I know I can do it if I maintain my momentum.Nothing comes easy,I realised that a very long time ago.Hardwork will definitely get paid later and it won;t go in vain.Efforts,efforts and efforts-that's what matters all the time!




p/s: don't get distracted till all your exams are over!'other things' CAN WAIT till your return to Ipoh~


Monday, March 8, 2010

Proud to be one.






A very belated Happy Women's Day(8th March) to all the strong willed,beautiful (inner and outside),respectable,dedicated,pretty,attractive and in short,a toss for those who are proudly bearing the word: girl/lady/woman.Happy women's day ya'll!!!




It's pretty ironic to call yourself a young lady when you know there are lots more to be attained to achieve the true meaning of being a lady.




Nevertheless,I'm proud to be one:)Though I'm no longer a fan of Ms.Spears,few of her earlier hits managed to win my heart especially the one below:




I'm not a girl,not yet a woman-by Britney Spears.






I used to think


I had the answers to everything


But now I know


That life doesn't always


Go my way,yeah


Feels like I'm caught in the middle,


That's when I realise




*chorus*


I'm not a girl


Not yet a woman


All I need is time


A moment that is mine


While I'm in between




I'm not a girl


There is no need to protect me


It's time that I


Learn to face up to this on my own


I've seen so much more than you know now


So don't tell me to shut my eyes




*chorus*


I'm not a girl


But if you look at Me closely


You will see it in my eyes


This girl will always find


Her way




(I'm not a girl)


I'm not a girl


Don't tell me what to believe


(not yet a woman)


I'm just tryin' to find the woman in me,yeah


(All I need is time) all I need


(A moment that is mine) that's mine


While I'm in between




I'm not a girl


Not yet a woman


All I need is time(is all I need)


A moment that is mine


While I'm in between




I'm not a girl


Not yet a woman.




the ongoing battle between the heart and the brain's limbic system will never tone down till the absolute way out is found and this concludes this entry of mine for today.




now,it's time to sleep!!




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Wednesday, March 3, 2010

is wanting >24 hours/day!

*waiting for the right time to come*




This entry of mine definitely will sound like 'the most exhausted girl's entry' ever!!!I think I'm losing my stamina..no I hate that seriously!Then how do you call the syndrome(?) of feeling tired almost everyday and looking damn tired to others?Still,appetite is on,infact I've been quite a 'ferocious' eater for the past few days.I just felt like popping every single food into my mouth...I know this will make some people happy but guess I have to watch out what I'm eating,I still want to slip right into my prefects clothes of the 18 year old me!




I was feeling so bloody sleepy in russian class half an hour ago.Infact all of us were!I was just hoping Mdm.Tatyana will notice and let us go earlier,but it wasn't any earlier that 5 pm.:(WIth clinical pharmacology on the run,life is all back to PHARMACOLOGY with my favourite Mdm.Dugina.Interesting subject,as it has always been but to have a very high expectation on us on the very first day of class is definitely a bad idea!And I can't seem to be able to revise the previous days topics because it takes ages to remember everything so intactly..duh,how am I going to fit everything in my small cerebral cortex?*AN ADDITIONAL HEADACHE,NOW!*.



I know I should have been just gotten under my comfy blanket and have atleast 2 hours of nap but again,I know I've been looking at my blog from the corner of my eyes for the past few days,so here I am today.Missed writing something very very interesting;well can't blame me,into the usual 'latent period':p




Maybe I should get some sleep before I collapse to the ground,lol.




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Tuesday, February 23, 2010

a toss for.....

*SMILING?EMOTIONLESS?SAD?@LABILE MOOD?*




This is my post 1 week of exam blog.With the commencement of 10th semester,in a week I had psychiatry exam.Exactly one week right after my exam.Yeah,I got through excellently,more like my mark was given based on my performances in class and with an additional question(I've never been asked that question in any of my exams here!).Done with my 1st exam for the sem and currently into Infectious Diseases rotation which will be ending this saturday.




I was waiting anxiously for Friday(19th February'10) so that I could take a complete break for the next 4 days(which I did,3 days without books!).23rd February is a public holiday which marks for Men's Day.In real,looking back at history,formely this celebration was intended for those who had served the army and it was known as Red Army Day.Basically,23rd February is celebrated by giving gifts to all the adam's species in Russian Federation,Ukraine,Belarus.Officially now,it is called DEFENDER OF THE FATHERLAND DAY.And now,tomorrow,back to my usual routine..ermm,can I extend few more days of break?Going to bed when the dawn breaks,and waking up past noon,is certainly blissful!!!:p




Chinese New Year celebration was held yesterday at 3rd hostel.No performances like the previous years,everyone is certainly BUSY!There's no fun in just thanking and wishing "happy chinese new year' and walk away with food/just stay inside a room with a couple of friends.I kind of missed our 4th floor's spirit..I still remember 3 years ago in our 5th sem when the whole 4th floor's residence(atleast majority of us) sat on a mat spread on the floor and enjoyed the food,that's how it's supposed to be but sadly,it's not like that anymore,especially now with another 2 semesters left before we bid goodbye to each other.




Anyhows,the food was really tasty.Rumin sim gave me this large piece of fried chicken...*burp* thank you everyone:)




On sunday,for the very first time,i tasted yee sang which was prepared by yeow,kok meng,soo ching,rumin,kheng huat and shari.Tossing yee sang was thrilling but not when it falls on others hands!!Thank you,thank you..too bad the pix are still with Kok meng,can't upload them:(




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Friday, February 12, 2010

So they say it..Happy Valentine's Day!

*on this Valentine,for my valentine,I give You my heart*-I think this is a very cute pic :p




"Nava,what's the plan for sunday?" Jeff questioned me to which I responded with a smile.Still the both funny groupmates of mine,who are apparently my walking partners from psychiatry hospital(every day!) continued asking "You know what's the day right?" This time I responded back saying "No,I don't" obviously with a smile,again.They didn't believe though saying "ah,you don;t know?" and burst out laughing! Jeff again "what you will be doing on sunday?" Me: "will be dating my psychiatry notes.That's the plan for Tuesday's exam!"...so here you go,the time of the year came again for us to show and spread love.Thanks to St.Valentine for making it an official day to celebrate the day of love,but,just the me asking again a very simple question:"I thought everyday is a Valentine's Day,no?"




10th Semester had been officiated with psychiatry exam cycle..yeap it has been a week,and next Tuesday will be my first exam for the semester.So still trying to get all the psychiatry terms into my mind.The first few days I found it very hard to get started with books after the extreme hibernation and idle me of 10 days of holidays.I was complaining "WHY ONLY 10 DAYS?".."I WANT A LONGER WINTER BREAK!!!".But now,I find psychiatry is interesting,too though not that much when it comes to patients,well will come to that point very soon...




Previous semester,Dr.Kitaieva was our mentor and for this semester,Dr.Ivan Borisovich took over and he will be our examiner.He's very good at commenting and explaining and the best thing about him is he himself being the 'patient' especially when he mimics and demonstrates gestures,physical appearance and every day situations of a psychic patients.Good job,Dr.




Last semester,the whole cycle was spent in our classroom wherelse this semester,we were exposed more to patients.2 days consequently (yesterday and today) we visited the female department.All of us had the fear (atleast the slightest) before we were even told to change our second pair of shoes and get ready to face the patients.




Yesterday was my very first time being in the department.I was on my guard,so did my groupmates.As the main door was unlocked to let us in,the very first female patient we say exerted the fear in all of till the end.She was in her green robe,with a continuous serious look,with subtly flexed face,looking very intensely at us.We walked pass the many patients wandering outside their wards and a few even came out from their rooms upon seeing the 'new doctors'.I was standing beside the couch seated by sarah,xiang yun and treasure,when we saw the lady in green was advancing her pace towards us with a manner to attack.My heart started to pound and when another patient(whom later was interviewed) approached us,she turned away and was back to her initial position standing behind the locked door.Phewww!!!




3 patients were interviewed.Everyone with 3rd auditory hallucinations.I wonder what the voices been telling them while they(the patients) were facing us.The very much anticipated abdalla became as quiet as a mouse upon seeing the patients.Though with delusions,agitation,tangentiality,flight of ideas which can annoy others,they still need the fullest care and support to get better because there's no way they can manage it/recover with only medications,or most of the time there;s no history of full recovery in psychiatry patients.Today,we had 2 patients with Alzheimer's Dementia and Vascular Dementia.2 different patients(totally).Impairement memory and intelligence are clearly visible when the clock could be drawn(to access visiospatial) but failure to point it at 3.40pm.Both patients couldn't even remember their children and spouses names.How saddening is that now right?Alzheimer;an unknown ethiology of progressive impairement of the brain's function can give a different outlook towards life to appreciate and be thankful for being the gifted ones once you're exposed to these type of situations.Still,no one can predict who will be the next victim of Alzheimer's as the age catches up.




On another note,on monday and tuesday,zakiah and I were followed by a young lad in his early 20s by the name Dima.From my observation,he is definitely a patient over there.His movements were rigid(like a robort),bright red eyes but well groomed and with a slow speech.Initially,abdalla became his first friend after I passed by him and went up upstairs.He followed abdalla and wanted to get to know the girls.Luckily,all of us were saved by Dr.Ivan Borisovich ushering us into the classroom.The next day,as I entered the department,he was waiting over there.He came so close that I started to get anxious.As the approach towards psychiatry patients are more 'gentle',I remained on my position and came a question "what's your name?" "Leena",I answered to which he replied "nice name"."On friday,can you come for a concert?" Me: "I can't,I have classes".Dima:"Okay,after class,you come". Me:"okay".I was just waiting to get out of his sight and quickly climbed up to my class.Later during break and again as zakiah and I were at the washroom,he appeared again asking zakiah "Is Leena in there?"..Came out,he asked me something which I couldn;t undertsand and I said "bye" and left.Now,isn't that a freaking good experience to have had an encounter with these patients?




To all those are reading this entry of mine: "Happy Valentine's Day to all of you".And remember,Valentine's Day is a day to show your gratitude,appreciation and love to the ones you kept very very close to your heart and carry them wherever you go:) Celebrate the day and if possible,make it an everyday event,and not only for a day(14th February each year!)




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