Ignore,ignore,ignore..

* go away at your own risk*...

1st May'11@1114

fear/confusion is creeping in for a reason or for no reason?I can't seem to undertsand why except to feel my thumping heartbeats each day,and it's increasing day by day or is it just my subjective feeling?

Whatever that awaits,you may attack me once the month of June ends,now it's already MAY!

1118

Because,You matter to Me.

*no more compromising in putting a smile on you*


23rd April'11 @0419

-it's all because,I care about you.


#said enough#



0427

DONE!--Surgery Prac with H.O.D:)

*med school teaser 3*-Practice makes perfect:p

18th April'11 @ 1630

Insiduous onset of palpitations + cold sweats + fear with no boundaries..and by 12.30,I'm done with surgery practicals in Vodnaya department.

By 8.40am,was already in hospital but we were systematically sent to patients after like 1 hour+++.Was glad for the time in between as i managed to check on colorectal cancer from Oxford handbook of clinical surgery.At times,last minute flipping will certainly come in aid and guess what?my patient,69 years old with chronic illness of hemorrhoids and recently diagnosed,colon cancer.Got through practicals with compliment "GOOD" and with excellent marks remarks on my evaluation on physical examination:)

Walked into the room,sat for 10 minutes waiting to be called and here you go,Surgeon Zagainov was my examinor.I was fully clad in my scrubs + cap +stethoscope around my neck,sat before him and i answered what i know.Diagnosed X-ray and its management correctly.FInally,"measure my blood pressure" as he said Malaysian students didn't know how to measure blood pressure.I did how i was thought in Internal Medicine and at that time,only i knew how my legs were trembling as I put on cuff on him(the big shot) while being looked by the assistant surgeon,Goldernburg..i really hope they didn't notice my legs.Well,yeah he has hypertension but his method of measurement bp is different from what i was thought.So,he was actually teaching me:)thank you Surgeon atleast now I know.

I got through like what I wanted only that I don't know what mark I got from him!Now,this is certainly an experience that will stick in my mind for years to come.

With A memo to Krsna before I left for exam today,I got to get fully committed and extra disciplined till the real GOC exams end.So Jr.Doctor is paving her way to her M.D title.Keep the spirit high and show them what you can do!:)

Countdown for GOC theoretical exams start!

1702

T.A.X.E.D!!!

*even too tired to sleep,now... :(*

16th April'11 @ 1926

Okay what's up with me?

symptoms:

-my brain is too lethargic at the moment(perhaps I should have gone to gym today!)

-my brain is going on strike against me..no you can't do this to me...pls?

-neither I can sleep nor concentrate on surgery!(too long hours sitting infront of books?)

*need to cover more chapters,don't turn your back against me..pls?*It's just another day away...

1933

1st part Gynae--> DONE!:)

*medical school teaser 2*

13th April'11 @1818

Gynaecology GOC practicals ended well today with a satisfied smile of "GOOD" by the Gynaecologist to all of us,after the days of 'torn' between what to read - OBS or Gynae for practicals.Group E is just too used to being the odd ones out,almost all the time.So ended up reading simultaneously obs and gynae on saturday and sunday.Managed to finish the basic of Obs(the first book of Obs).Started reading seriously gynaecology on Monday(yeah 2 days before teh real exam day!).Managed to cover the exam questions~

Today got a patient,26 years old with correctly diagnosed by me,abdalla,jeff and sara-Primary Recurrent Spontaneous Abortion.She's into her 4th pregnancy(14th week of gestation).I can tell for sure that the gynaecologist was very much impressed with our diagnosis and let me tell you a secret here;we didn't get to look at her case report (though it was given to us),besides the informations the patient was providing to us.And why we didn't take the chance of reading teh case report?Clerking was just too much that we enquired every single details from her that even 1 hour wasn't enough.So since the diagnosis was correct,the gynaecologist just asked us about our further actions:)isn't that a relief?WE'RE HAPPY!!! when came to practicals,2 of us did external and internal inspections of the genitals on the dummies.All is well and ended well:)

Though Internal Medicine is the core of all exams,gynae GOC will never be forgotten with some of us had emotional breakdown when we simply didn't know what to read!!! Congrats 6th Years and our next stop will be- SURGERY on the 18th April:) *let's get going tonight*

1835

1 down,yo!:)

*med school teaser 1*

8th April'11 @1302

I was out from hostel at 8.10am today with my best companion,zakiah.All that was in my mind today was,let everything go silky smooth as I promised I will prepare fully(for sure) for GOC theory in June.With the notice of 2 weeks for practical examinations,I was hit by the wave of stress(a massive one):already fell sick 3 times(with exacerbations of post stress signs and symptoms).So,Navanita is hitting back the gym tomorrow after 1 month of break!:)

First patient to clark,wasn't in her room and i accidentally begun to clark her ward-mate,only to realise after i asked her name,i Got the wrong patient!Hurried down and I got another patient.73 year old,male patient..hello grandpa:):) he wasn't grumpy at all,infact very much patient and answered all my questions..thank you so much.Diagnosed with chronic gout after all my physical examinations on him including heart auscultation,percussion of the lung,bp measurement.My tonometer created a fuss and luckily sarah brought hers.Dr.Yulia was my practical doctor,answered her and did pitting edema examination on my patient.My patient gave extra remark on me and Dr.Yulia was happy and signed my paper and there I went to the lecture hall with a fearful heart.

The moment i walked in,the second group were in a long queu waiting to be given patients.Glad I was in the first batch.Insidious onset of palpitations begun when I saw Dr.Andrevna(who was eyeing me with a smile,she never left her gaze on me when I walked in),Dr.Ksenia,Dr.Tatyana,Dr.Panova,infecttious and TB Drs were there too.Got analysis on bilirubin,sat on the 4th floor *to be continued after back from Internal Lecture...*

*back from Dr.Ilya's hyperglycemia in ACS lecture*..so I got the analysis on bilirubin/biochem analysis and finally i was called by Dr.Kersenia but subsequently was passed on to the infectious Dr.Answered her well and voila I'M DONE WITH INTERNAL MEDICINE'S PRACTICAL EXAM!:):)

Thank you so much the almighty and the most aspiring and inspiring moments were when I received 3 wonderful remarks from my patient,Dr.Yulia and Dr.Infectious.Still a student here,and this junior doctor will strive for the best:)I still have another chance to make up to /fill up what I'm lack of..so it starts again and the next stop will be on the 13th April-OBs/gynae?Still have no idea..let's warm up the engine tonight!

p/s:saw Dr.Petrov today-macho-ly walking down the 4th floor's hallway but his pony tail was slightly tied to the left today...perhaps i should have taken a snap?lol..

1747 :)