Tuesday, February 23, 2010

a toss for.....

*SMILING?EMOTIONLESS?SAD?@LABILE MOOD?*




This is my post 1 week of exam blog.With the commencement of 10th semester,in a week I had psychiatry exam.Exactly one week right after my exam.Yeah,I got through excellently,more like my mark was given based on my performances in class and with an additional question(I've never been asked that question in any of my exams here!).Done with my 1st exam for the sem and currently into Infectious Diseases rotation which will be ending this saturday.




I was waiting anxiously for Friday(19th February'10) so that I could take a complete break for the next 4 days(which I did,3 days without books!).23rd February is a public holiday which marks for Men's Day.In real,looking back at history,formely this celebration was intended for those who had served the army and it was known as Red Army Day.Basically,23rd February is celebrated by giving gifts to all the adam's species in Russian Federation,Ukraine,Belarus.Officially now,it is called DEFENDER OF THE FATHERLAND DAY.And now,tomorrow,back to my usual routine..ermm,can I extend few more days of break?Going to bed when the dawn breaks,and waking up past noon,is certainly blissful!!!:p




Chinese New Year celebration was held yesterday at 3rd hostel.No performances like the previous years,everyone is certainly BUSY!There's no fun in just thanking and wishing "happy chinese new year' and walk away with food/just stay inside a room with a couple of friends.I kind of missed our 4th floor's spirit..I still remember 3 years ago in our 5th sem when the whole 4th floor's residence(atleast majority of us) sat on a mat spread on the floor and enjoyed the food,that's how it's supposed to be but sadly,it's not like that anymore,especially now with another 2 semesters left before we bid goodbye to each other.




Anyhows,the food was really tasty.Rumin sim gave me this large piece of fried chicken...*burp* thank you everyone:)




On sunday,for the very first time,i tasted yee sang which was prepared by yeow,kok meng,soo ching,rumin,kheng huat and shari.Tossing yee sang was thrilling but not when it falls on others hands!!Thank you,thank you..too bad the pix are still with Kok meng,can't upload them:(




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Friday, February 12, 2010

So they say it..Happy Valentine's Day!

*on this Valentine,for my valentine,I give You my heart*-I think this is a very cute pic :p




"Nava,what's the plan for sunday?" Jeff questioned me to which I responded with a smile.Still the both funny groupmates of mine,who are apparently my walking partners from psychiatry hospital(every day!) continued asking "You know what's the day right?" This time I responded back saying "No,I don't" obviously with a smile,again.They didn't believe though saying "ah,you don;t know?" and burst out laughing! Jeff again "what you will be doing on sunday?" Me: "will be dating my psychiatry notes.That's the plan for Tuesday's exam!"...so here you go,the time of the year came again for us to show and spread love.Thanks to St.Valentine for making it an official day to celebrate the day of love,but,just the me asking again a very simple question:"I thought everyday is a Valentine's Day,no?"




10th Semester had been officiated with psychiatry exam cycle..yeap it has been a week,and next Tuesday will be my first exam for the semester.So still trying to get all the psychiatry terms into my mind.The first few days I found it very hard to get started with books after the extreme hibernation and idle me of 10 days of holidays.I was complaining "WHY ONLY 10 DAYS?".."I WANT A LONGER WINTER BREAK!!!".But now,I find psychiatry is interesting,too though not that much when it comes to patients,well will come to that point very soon...




Previous semester,Dr.Kitaieva was our mentor and for this semester,Dr.Ivan Borisovich took over and he will be our examiner.He's very good at commenting and explaining and the best thing about him is he himself being the 'patient' especially when he mimics and demonstrates gestures,physical appearance and every day situations of a psychic patients.Good job,Dr.




Last semester,the whole cycle was spent in our classroom wherelse this semester,we were exposed more to patients.2 days consequently (yesterday and today) we visited the female department.All of us had the fear (atleast the slightest) before we were even told to change our second pair of shoes and get ready to face the patients.




Yesterday was my very first time being in the department.I was on my guard,so did my groupmates.As the main door was unlocked to let us in,the very first female patient we say exerted the fear in all of till the end.She was in her green robe,with a continuous serious look,with subtly flexed face,looking very intensely at us.We walked pass the many patients wandering outside their wards and a few even came out from their rooms upon seeing the 'new doctors'.I was standing beside the couch seated by sarah,xiang yun and treasure,when we saw the lady in green was advancing her pace towards us with a manner to attack.My heart started to pound and when another patient(whom later was interviewed) approached us,she turned away and was back to her initial position standing behind the locked door.Phewww!!!




3 patients were interviewed.Everyone with 3rd auditory hallucinations.I wonder what the voices been telling them while they(the patients) were facing us.The very much anticipated abdalla became as quiet as a mouse upon seeing the patients.Though with delusions,agitation,tangentiality,flight of ideas which can annoy others,they still need the fullest care and support to get better because there's no way they can manage it/recover with only medications,or most of the time there;s no history of full recovery in psychiatry patients.Today,we had 2 patients with Alzheimer's Dementia and Vascular Dementia.2 different patients(totally).Impairement memory and intelligence are clearly visible when the clock could be drawn(to access visiospatial) but failure to point it at 3.40pm.Both patients couldn't even remember their children and spouses names.How saddening is that now right?Alzheimer;an unknown ethiology of progressive impairement of the brain's function can give a different outlook towards life to appreciate and be thankful for being the gifted ones once you're exposed to these type of situations.Still,no one can predict who will be the next victim of Alzheimer's as the age catches up.




On another note,on monday and tuesday,zakiah and I were followed by a young lad in his early 20s by the name Dima.From my observation,he is definitely a patient over there.His movements were rigid(like a robort),bright red eyes but well groomed and with a slow speech.Initially,abdalla became his first friend after I passed by him and went up upstairs.He followed abdalla and wanted to get to know the girls.Luckily,all of us were saved by Dr.Ivan Borisovich ushering us into the classroom.The next day,as I entered the department,he was waiting over there.He came so close that I started to get anxious.As the approach towards psychiatry patients are more 'gentle',I remained on my position and came a question "what's your name?" "Leena",I answered to which he replied "nice name"."On friday,can you come for a concert?" Me: "I can't,I have classes".Dima:"Okay,after class,you come". Me:"okay".I was just waiting to get out of his sight and quickly climbed up to my class.Later during break and again as zakiah and I were at the washroom,he appeared again asking zakiah "Is Leena in there?"..Came out,he asked me something which I couldn;t undertsand and I said "bye" and left.Now,isn't that a freaking good experience to have had an encounter with these patients?




To all those are reading this entry of mine: "Happy Valentine's Day to all of you".And remember,Valentine's Day is a day to show your gratitude,appreciation and love to the ones you kept very very close to your heart and carry them wherever you go:) Celebrate the day and if possible,make it an everyday event,and not only for a day(14th February each year!)




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Wednesday, February 3, 2010

"Missed" Part Of Me.

* can I ever get back the things which I have missed?*
3rd February'10 @ 2215




4 more days to end my short semester break.Here I am in my room,replied my e-pal's mail,sort of gave 'consultation' to 4 of my friends.I'm already a doctor @ Jr.Doctor:).1 more year to go,Nita...*should I be happy or start getting all tensed up?*




Facing my Dell,my mind is darting back to many things which I really want to put in words.I was asked few days ago " What You have missed?I guess you have everything?" when I responded to my 1 week plus old mail (*smile*) "Doing medic has no life,all you have is your books to look to and accompany you.Only I know how many things I have missed and I can never get them back".




I'm a person who really appreciate and value all the small things in my life.I don't wish for real big and luxurious things to be spent on me but just a small and sincere care and love will do.Nothing can replace that priceless love given to me by my dearests.




When I say "I miss you",I really mean it.I know some of you might be seeing me using that phrase alot in my fb and it's not written for fun or to just attract attention.I want to stress it here that it is meant for you and your absence really gives an impact on me.




Missingness which I can never get back will always linger in myself.The many missingness which will accumulate as I grow older every passing day.Seriously;,




~I miss reading my favourite novels past midnight and sleep with it during lower secondary days.




~I miss sleeping on daddy's chest every night before I was ushered back to my room with a peck on my cheek.




~I miss lying on mum's lap when I needed to ease myself.




~I miss having a good heart to heart talk with mum and dad every night.




~I miss having our family dinner each night in front of the tv in the hall.




~I miss having that sister-brother-quarrel with ragu.




~I miss having daddy as my alarm clock early in the morning to wake me up to school.




~I miss our early sunday morning talks on the bed.




~I miss hanging out with my besties and buddies on special occasions.




~I miss hiring the cab and hitting the squash ground every thursday after school with my besties.




~I miss sitting on my swing and look up the sky for the brightest star before I finally make a wish.




~I miss having that small talk with dad and mum on the swing while munching my snacks at night.




~I miss disturbing mum and dad when I have nothing to do!




~I miss the saturday nights dinner at my favourite places with dad and mum.




~I miss celebrating the many special occasions with dad and mum.




~I miss baking cookies with mum a week before diwali.




~I miss the early morning oil bath, and visits to temple with mum dad and ragu on auspicious days.




~I miss being present and be part of my big families gatherings and on most significant days.




~I miss being there to welcome the new cuties to the family.




~I miss addressing myself personally instead of being told by others "she is your dr.sis/dr.aunt"




~I miss having that small fumbling for keys fight with ragu to drive dad's car.




~I miss driving my own car when I don't have to squeeze myself into a public bus!




~I miss not having to bundle up with a thick clothes but just a denim and jeans will do whenever I wanted to go out.




~I miss enjoying my favourite foods without having to worry about diabetes mellitus,arterial hypertension and obesity.




~I miss being mum's chaperon when both of us go out together.




~I miss the late night 'sneak out' from my room to downstairs for a spoonful ice cream:p




~I miss having that good late night and long chats in msn;)




~I miss having our father-daughter debate when I wanted something before daddy finally gives in:)




~I miss doing shopping with mum and dad,going up and down the many shops to find for the best suit for me:) * talk about being a girl and wanting the best*




~I miss getting ragu into trouble even when he was such an 'angel'.




~I miss being that happy school girl without any burden/responsibilities waiting for her.




~I miss the lil girl that I once used to be..the kindergarten girl;I miss sleeping in my big pail/bucket beside the cute little plant in my garden.




~I miss eating that 'secret' cone ice-cream given by my late grandma,I miss you badly ammama.*I'm so unlucky to lose you at that very tender age*




~I miss being paraded as a princess by mum, guarded by my elder brothers:)




~I miss the more real and pure world that I own once.




~All in all,I miss being the care-free girl that I once was.I miss doing things that truly gave me the happiness that I wanted.




And now,that's just a lil ranting from me.That's me,on and off I'll reminiscise my 'missed life' which can never be understood by others.I'm missing it more when I'm totally free just like now.




Still,life has to go on right?Soon in a year,I will be missing my Medical Student life and will be fully responsible for the many lifes in hospitals.




Am I prepared to let go of these and face the new phase of my life?Time will decide everything and all I got to do is,simply -PLAY MY PART to be part of it.




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Monday, February 1, 2010

Life after exam!:)
























































1st February'10 @ 2308






















Started off the day by getting done with our practicals on ambulance procedures.Will be officially starting on thursday and the remaining days will be done when semester reopens.




























I'm going to make a very short entry here,only pix to be seen.We decided to go for ice skating today.Me,wani,soo ching,farah had dinner at the "Biblioteka Cafe" (biblioteka in rus means library).It was my (and the rest's) first time being there except for wani who had already been there with syahrul.The environment was simply too cosy and very inviting.The service was good with the waitresses being able to communicate in english,providing us with menu in english:)..and when the food comes..I was just too happy!!! I enjoy food very much.We ordered separately and tasted each,awesomely delicious with a complete meal set : cheese pasta + chocolate milk shake + mousse..okay enjoy the pix..and I'm giving you the honour to drool over the food..*lol*