mode: being idle.

* soon I'm gonna be upside down,like this..:p*
25th September'11 @ 0014

Can I tell you something?Waiting is ain't fun at all,no really..it's not.I think I'm getting more idle day by day and unfortunately,it has been noted by dad.Shameful me,but what am I supposed to do?It was said earlier,the biggest induction will be on the 4th October and ever since then,been waiting anxiously for my induction letter.I've never looked out for the Pos Laju delivery as much as I did last thursday..as for mom,'let the letter come late...better still if it's after diwali"..what?no way mom!!~ With a regime of 9am to 5pm everyday for the past 6 years,I really feel useless..it feels like I'm on a vacation,a very lazy vacation,indeed.

Maybe I should get started on my notes and revise them.Believe me,I did start on them but it seems like my brain cells need to be 'electrocuted' so that they'll remain focused and get on the run with me.Long stretch of holidays,undeniable have set the neurons and impulse transmission at rest.

Still,not passing by the days being lifeless.Been into deep thoughts on past,present and future(the latter has to be reminded by dad,as usual)..well,well new topics been suggested into my mind;USMLE and MRCP during my housemanship and yes,if I'm committed enough,I will sail through but can I juggle them smoothly: housemanship and foreign medical examinations?It's so impulsive and easy to say when someone asks you what your specialisation going to be?But when the time is nearing,a lump forms in your throat.I sought after advices regarding these as I'm still a newbie here.Let's see which one will be better out of the two,and that's for the sake of a dream that has always been inside to be realised.

I know soon I will be demanding for my break because of exhaustion but as for now....prolly,next week I will receive a white envelope ,written "URUSAN SERI PADUKA BAGINDA?"

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